Dreaming...

[azurelunatic]

Some people don't act in their dreams. They can't decide things, they don't exercise Will. It's odd, and scary, to think of a situation where you are observing yourself doing something without your Will and active decisions powering it.

I cannot remember any dreams I've had where I have not been in control of my own Self. Even when I have dreamed myself other people, I've still been self-aware, deciding. I may not have been in a situation to effect any change, and I'm rarely aware that I am dreaming when I am dreaming, but I know who I am, even if I'm not me, and I can affect the outcome of my dreams.

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[azurelunatic]

When I'm dreaming, I tend to be aware that I have been here before, if I have, and know the events from that dream.

It's like my memory banks have been altered. I know different things. I am still me; whatever it is that makes me be myself is still there, but I have different memories, different past, different situation, and I know all of these things.

Sometimes I don't feel as if I have a choice in matters, but that's the same sort of situation you find yourself in, with real life.

I have had the viewpoint-dreams too; those feel much more like movies than something that is happening to me; I am empathically aware of what is going on inside the person when things happen, sometimes, but I don't identify with them to a horribly huge degree...

I keep my journal with the dreams in so that I can refer back to dreams I had before; I'm getting a lot better about being able to identify dream-memories and real-memories and keep the twain from muddling.

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[sithjawa.livejournal.com]

I don't remember all my dreams, all the time... like, I might have five dreams in a night and remember one, vaguely, but know I had others.

[azurelunatic]

I remember very few of my dreams, these days.