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azurelunatic) wrote2001-07-19 08:05 am
azurelunatic) wrote2001-07-19 08:05 am
hands around throat
Apparently I can be as irritating as all hell. I may have intellectually realized the possibility, but emotionally have still to accept it and get over it and improve.
Thankfully, Darkside is fairly patient with me, and does sometimes tell me when I'm getting out of hand.
I want to learn which, precisely, of my little mannerisms and habits are the irritating ones, so that I may review them and decide which ones are worth keeping, and which ones I may get rid of without a second thought.
Perhaps it's not a good idea for me to revise myself based on the opinions of others, but most of the things I do are persona, not that-which-is-me. I can change these things into something that's socially acceptable ... socially acceptable as defined by Darkside. Darkside is a very good touchstone for me: best friend, and a person with social standards that I consider good. He's a programmer, a gamer, an anime fan, a practitioner of the Art. I consider him an equal.
The trouble, though, is picking out what really irritates him from what we joke around about. He wraps his hands around my throat every time I taunt him about my superior class schedule. Of course, he has more time off than I do. I hope him grabbing me by the neck doesn't always mean he's pissed off, because for some reason I like it...
Ok, I'm weird.
Thankfully, Darkside is fairly patient with me, and does sometimes tell me when I'm getting out of hand.
I want to learn which, precisely, of my little mannerisms and habits are the irritating ones, so that I may review them and decide which ones are worth keeping, and which ones I may get rid of without a second thought.
Perhaps it's not a good idea for me to revise myself based on the opinions of others, but most of the things I do are persona, not that-which-is-me. I can change these things into something that's socially acceptable ... socially acceptable as defined by Darkside. Darkside is a very good touchstone for me: best friend, and a person with social standards that I consider good. He's a programmer, a gamer, an anime fan, a practitioner of the Art. I consider him an equal.
The trouble, though, is picking out what really irritates him from what we joke around about. He wraps his hands around my throat every time I taunt him about my superior class schedule. Of course, he has more time off than I do. I hope him grabbing me by the neck doesn't always mean he's pissed off, because for some reason I like it...
Ok, I'm weird.
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