damn straight.

[azurelunatic]

i'm scared. someone asked me to talk about one day. so i'm trying. i'm trying to remember it. i would be hyperventilating if I weren't so well in control right now.

i'm terrified. not because i think it's going to happen again, but because even though i think it won't it always might, and i might not come out the other side with all my friends.

i'm terrified. i have to write about this. i have to get it out of my fingertips.

darkside was there for me. darkside wrapped meup in ablanket and got me something hot to drink and put me to bed.

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[nalidoll.livejournal.com]

when i have something hard to write about, i don't try to write: i spew.

writing tends to be too much about shaping and rethinking and analyzing things for me.

so i just choke a little, cough, gag, and let it go, all over the posting field.
then, later, i clean it up if it needs it.
usually, i don't have to. i find it spills out just the way it needs to: True.

[iroshi.livejournal.com]

Sweetie? We need to Talk, don't we?

[azurelunatic]

We already Talked about this one.

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[iroshi.livejournal.com]

Oh, okay. Doesn't necessarily mean you don't need to talk again, but you sounded shaky.

[azurelunatic]

That week was a really rough one for everybody involved, but she decided it was time to talk...

...I'd thought I was a little less shaky by now.

...But I think we're all right. It's just a little unnerving to talk about the specific event that fragmented your mind again...

[azurelunatic]

Yeah.

This one was difficult.

[azurelunatic]

When I write, I have to think about what I'm writing about. The words come out fine if I can think about it.

That, I didn't want to go back to think about.