Seven-day rebound.

Adam has now become a chick magnet.

Payback's a bitch, baby....

...unless it's a witch.

He came out of the room smacking his forehead and asking me when it was that he'd done the thing for which I pinned him against the wall.

Seven days to the moment.

Damn.

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1:07 pm: Saw Darkside leaving school. Chatted. Miss him every moment I have something to share & he's not there.

The hot tub is my friend.

Long day at work. Saw Darkside in the middle of it: ran over to school on lunch break, because he said he might be there; he was just leaving, so I walked him out to his car.

This evening, went with Marx and soaked in the hot tub.

Subspace Anomalies

Chatting brought up to me the odd thought, again: Who would I do this for?

I'm fairly sure that in BD/SM terminology, I'd be a switch. There are some people I have fun dominating. There are some people I bare my neck to.

It all boils down to trust. I don't have to ask, sometimes. Careful of assumptions. But the reason I can play martial arts games ... because he would never. And I would never.

So we can.

It's an odd place in my head, where I can see myself as willing subordinate, and thus not subordinate at all; taking direction at my own free will because it pleases me to please my beloved.

It's odd. I have been percieved as a bossy knowitall at times... sometimes I have to be in control ... but not when everything's going exactly right.

Don't get me wrong. I enjoy being in control, sexually. Just .... there's that little bit of me that just curls up, rolls over, and bares the neck in response to certain cues, and if I can't do that with someone, I'm never totally theirs.