Things that Backfire
Tried staying up all day so I could sleep all night. Finally crashed around nine-something.
Now I'm awake! Perk, perk.
Now I'm awake! Perk, perk.
2002-12-14
Moods, magic, & stuff.
Since we don't have our psychsets tape-fed to us, and they're always in flux, it's necessary for each to find own handles [for deliberate mood-change]. But specific methods for finding handles are learnable, cross-reference Heavy Occult Religious Stuff. (That's pretty much what a fair bit of [the beginning stuff] is about: managing thine own mind and grokking it. Before one may do anything Heavy, one's got to master the tool for doing Heavy, which is mind.)
Which makes me suddenly wonder if there are any azi mages. And if so, I bet they could make and learn tape for spellcasting.
I discovered my mood handle when drunk for the very first time. It governed base mood, and it had been flopped down to depressed, and the alcohol enabled me to notice where it was, because alcohol sets my base mood to "cheerful".
Ghaa.
Evidently my brain has a style sheet.
Which makes me suddenly wonder if there are any azi mages. And if so, I bet they could make and learn tape for spellcasting.
I discovered my mood handle when drunk for the very first time. It governed base mood, and it had been flopped down to depressed, and the alcohol enabled me to notice where it was, because alcohol sets my base mood to "cheerful".
Ghaa.
Evidently my brain has a style sheet.
my memorable sigs from the Grey Side
--JL, Darth Why Are Virgins Drawn To Me? Am I Some
Bloody Unicorn?
Bloody Unicorn?
Morning, life skills
Bright & early & awake. Got my breakfast. Have noticed that a good time to have a few quiet words about stuff with Nephew is early in the mornings, while he's at his most alert and processing, after he's fully woken up, but before he's had a chance to act up about something. Don't always do it, but sometimes I do.
This morning, had a few words with him on the topic of being demanding. He's been doing that lately, and that gets old fast. He told me that the tag in his pants was poking him and he needed it out. I asked him how he was supposed to say that, he asked please, I took it out, waited, asked him what he said then. Thank you. I threw the tag out and asked him what would have happened if, when he'd asked me to take the tag out of his pants, if I'd told him "Not right now, I'm busy." Would he have said "Okay," and asked later, or would he have made a fuss about it?
That was a real poser for him, and got him thinking. I said that I hoped that he would be polite and ask again later when we weren't so busy. Then I told him how when he was a baby and couldn't understand later or do things himself, we had to do everything for him right away, because he couldn't do it and couldn't understand, but now that he's a big boy, he can do things himself and learn to wait!
Nephew is big on the growing up thing, and likes to hear affirmations that he's getting more grown-up and he's not a baby anymore. By tying learning to wait in with doing things himself as a sign of growing up, this should hopefully add to patience.
This morning, had a few words with him on the topic of being demanding. He's been doing that lately, and that gets old fast. He told me that the tag in his pants was poking him and he needed it out. I asked him how he was supposed to say that, he asked please, I took it out, waited, asked him what he said then. Thank you. I threw the tag out and asked him what would have happened if, when he'd asked me to take the tag out of his pants, if I'd told him "Not right now, I'm busy." Would he have said "Okay," and asked later, or would he have made a fuss about it?
That was a real poser for him, and got him thinking. I said that I hoped that he would be polite and ask again later when we weren't so busy. Then I told him how when he was a baby and couldn't understand later or do things himself, we had to do everything for him right away, because he couldn't do it and couldn't understand, but now that he's a big boy, he can do things himself and learn to wait!
Nephew is big on the growing up thing, and likes to hear affirmations that he's getting more grown-up and he's not a baby anymore. By tying learning to wait in with doing things himself as a sign of growing up, this should hopefully add to patience.
Things that are Not Good
On Thursday when I went to donate plasma, I was an hour and a half early. I stood outside in the downtown desert night chill and watched the sun rise.
When they took my temperature as part of the mini-physical, it was 97.3. All my life, my temperature's been low. 97.6, usually. But since moving to Arizona, my temperature has moved up: normal is now 99.1.
A temperature drop of nearly two degrees because of cold is not good. It took me until noon to warm back up, and that was in bed with many warm blankets.
The last time I remember being that chilled, it was from sittin the Dungeon, getting it on with Shawn for the first time... and that was in the unheated basement of concrete fire stairs with ground level windows open to the January Alaska weather outside.
When they took my temperature as part of the mini-physical, it was 97.3. All my life, my temperature's been low. 97.6, usually. But since moving to Arizona, my temperature has moved up: normal is now 99.1.
A temperature drop of nearly two degrees because of cold is not good. It took me until noon to warm back up, and that was in bed with many warm blankets.
The last time I remember being that chilled, it was from sittin the Dungeon, getting it on with Shawn for the first time... and that was in the unheated basement of concrete fire stairs with ground level windows open to the January Alaska weather outside.
Yule
I'm conflicted over the whole Yule thing. The practicalities of it are:
If I didn't want to go, all would be good. If spending the night were not involved, I could go.
I wasn't coherent enough to lay it all out last night. I am this morning.
I cannot take going straight from one high-tension situation into another.
- I leave the 26th early morning.
- Christmas is the 25th.
- Votania's great-aunt has a traditional party on Christmas Eve.
- I must pack before I leave
- Our Yule party is on the 21st.
- Votania's mother wishes us to go to the two parties and spend the night in between at her house.
- I wish to attend both parties.
- It will put too much stress on me to have to get absolutely all my stuff packed and all final arrangements made by the 23rd.
- I cannot attend if spending the night is involved.
If I didn't want to go, all would be good. If spending the night were not involved, I could go.
I wasn't coherent enough to lay it all out last night. I am this morning.
I cannot take going straight from one high-tension situation into another.
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Now I'm the one who feels like shit.
...I wonder if my parents would be cool with doing what![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ralmathon's parents do.
Great.
Bitchy Witchy Week strikes again.
And today was such a decent day...
...I wonder if my parents would be cool with doing what
ralmathon's parents do. Great.
Bitchy Witchy Week strikes again.
And today was such a decent day...