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my memorable sigs from the Grey Side

--JL, Darth Why Are Virgins Drawn To Me? Am I Some
Bloody Unicorn?

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" YES YOU ARE!"

now sit down like a nice unicorn and eat your oats :)

D.E.

Bah.

I'll have you know that tonight there WAS NO SEX.

Nope.

Your still a unicorn though.

Really.

So how many virgins are lured to me?

All of them

:) Bet you had fun snuggling though :)

D.E.

Yeah. Mostly I was asleep, though.

No making out, no heavy petting, just snuggling.

I have made a Rule against sex when depressed, as it only makes me feel worse.

Sounds familiar. I have the same rule. Guess that would explain the "slowing" down of my sex life compared to what it was. I've been VERY depressed lately with only a few breaks here and there. I think even though I shouldn't have, using my credit card to get the two games may be what I need to start feeling better. I don't regret buying them, but I know it'll be longer now till I'm out of debt, can't find perfection yet, will keep trying.

What I've really been needing is something I can be the best at, that no one else can beat me at, and have it be some kind of fullfilling project, something useful for mind, body, spirit.
in other words, something to make me feel good about my self :)

D.E.

Perfection?

And you claimed to be human? :) Darkside's always getting on my ass for being mad at myself or upset because I'm not perfect. As many as his flaws are, there's one place that he's got me absolutely figured out, and he can always call me on it... and I can call him on it too.

Trying at perfection is one thing, to continue improvement, but I keep reading between the lines that you're upset and frustrated that you're not perfect at things. That disturbs me... seeking self-worth in your ability to perform a task ideally has some fundamental flaws deep down in the bottom of it.

If you define your self-worth that way, then you will always be destroyed when you find someone better at that task and think that you will never be able to attain their level of expertise at it no matter how hard you work. I've heard your small fish/big pond speech too many times to think that this method of pulling yourself up will work: it's the pendulum, majorly, and I don't know that you know of any way of stopping it if you continue to think that perfection is the answer.

There is always a bigger fish.

I do not want to see you go down, eternally elated and frustrated by turns in a search for perfection. I have seen you go through the cycle of "I am the greatest"/"I am nothing" far too much. It is time to stop the pendulum.

Your worth to yourself, and to others, is not defined by how well you can do something. You are not your delightfully prepared gourmet meals. You are not your beautiful necklaces. You are not the spells you cast. You are not the Yule decorations. You are not the gifts you give to others. You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. YOU'RE NOT EVEN A BLOODY SNOWFLAKE!

You are yourself. And that is where your worth is contained.

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Maybe I'm totally off-base, but this is how I'm seeing it.