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azurelunatic) wrote2003-09-20 11:01 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2003-09-20 11:01 pm
Love, and how my thing with Darkside screws me up
The thing is, when everything is right between Darkside and me, everything is all right and wonderful.
But my link to him is so integral with me, that whenever something happens where communication between us gets screwed up, or, more particularly, something goes wrong between us, and does not get straightened out because of poor communication, I get profoundly screwed up.
Imagine a marriage, which has as part of in the partners being physically separated from each other, and imagine what happens if somehow the partners stop talking to each other. You'd get some pretty profound things going wrong. This works the same way.
And of course, when I finally do articulate what exactly the problem is to him, we discuss it all out, and it is made better. It's just that first step, realizing that there's something wrong, and then getting the talking going, that does it...
But my link to him is so integral with me, that whenever something happens where communication between us gets screwed up, or, more particularly, something goes wrong between us, and does not get straightened out because of poor communication, I get profoundly screwed up.
Imagine a marriage, which has as part of in the partners being physically separated from each other, and imagine what happens if somehow the partners stop talking to each other. You'd get some pretty profound things going wrong. This works the same way.
And of course, when I finally do articulate what exactly the problem is to him, we discuss it all out, and it is made better. It's just that first step, realizing that there's something wrong, and then getting the talking going, that does it...