Dreams: Dormroom, Shawn + Darkside AU crossover; waking world realization

[azurelunatic]

Dreamed that I was living in a dorm room with That Idiot Shawn, only he wasn't quite That Idiot Shawn. After many adventures in near-communication, it was revealed that he was a very AU blend of Darkside and Shawn -- not entirely dangerous, but not entirely safe either.

So it winds up, in the waking world, that I shouldn't worry so much about potentially falling for Mr. Idiot again. The dream laid it out very plainly: those features of Shawn's that are both attractive and dangerous are present, in Darkside, in a non-dangerous form. Shawn has a high level of focus on projects that are important to him, and is angry if disturbed. Darkside has a high level of focus on projects that are important to him, and will put them aside if there is something wrong. Darkside isn't, objectively speaking, safe, but since he is an honorable man and knows many of his own potential shortcomings and works around them, and I know them too and know how to get around them, he's safe for me. It doesn't hurt that he's fairly focused on making sure to keep me safe...

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[pharminatrix.livejournal.com]

I have dreams about exes too, and I always suspect that it's my brain working through the situation until I "win."

he is an honorable man and knows many of his own potential shortcomings and works around them, and I know them too and know how to get around them, he's safe for me. It doesn't hurt that he's fairly focused on making sure to keep me safe...

That's a wonderful feeling to have and for me, I'm always mystified about how, after so many misjudgements, I finally found someone who has my best interests in mind. Like, how did I stumble upon this?

[azurelunatic]

Evidently there were AU multiples of the guys in there, physically rather than just in-head, sort of like the Black Gang but not quite. All different. Alternate fragments, telling us the inner secrets of them and the guy who I was roommates with.

It was weird.

It was like looking at both Mark and Miles.

[azurelunatic]

I know for me it was a combination of sheer blind luck and one particular ritual I did when 14 because I was pissed off that I'd screwed my chances at being friends with this one really nice geekboy in school, and I wanted a fresh chance.

So 8 years later, maybe to the day, there he is again, different person, different middle and last names, different history, same grin and attitude, same RPGs...