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azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-01 11:23 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-01 11:23 pm
bonkers
Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a rubber room. I died there. They put me in a box in the ground with worms. I hate worms. They make me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once...
It feels lonely tonight, for whatever reason. I doubt Adam's going to be spending the night at home. This bothers me more than it should. I can't even talk to the guy at the computer right next to mine. ...odd. My voice may be missing tonight. Hasn't happened like that since ... not sure when.
Adam's playing with his laptop and talking on the phone, probably to his ex. The one he fucked. Neighbor didn't show up. Drat. ...He hasn't been doing that lately. ...I think tonight his friends from out of town were going to be showing up, or was that next weekend? I miss seeing him here. He makes things happy around.
Perhaps I'm slightly dehydrated. The back of my throat was yowling at me like I was. I know I've eaten today. I've been trying to lose weight, but somehow failing.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
votania says that I have, that perhaps I haven't been seeing it, but she has, and even though the winter's put some more weight back on me, I've definitely gotten skinnier... not sure. Breakfast was an anti-win, a candy bar grabbed on the run out the door at ten or so, then lunch of sloppy-joes (could have done without the butter on the bread... or the bread itself for that matter! or the second helping!) and ice cream for dessert. Dinner, steak, sandwich, and salad. I was skinny in high school because that dear friend of mine Shawn kept "borrowing" my sandwich and my cookies. I got the drink, the carrot sticks, and the apple slices, though.
When I get a moment, I think I'm going to, after banishing most of the credit card demons (which requires, alas, the budget to do so), get myself this account paid, and then, with the first of my happy new codes, give myself another account for Rose to use.
(I've gotten a bit of sanity now, so I think it may have been a hydration or blood sugar issue.)
It feels lonely tonight, for whatever reason. I doubt Adam's going to be spending the night at home. This bothers me more than it should. I can't even talk to the guy at the computer right next to mine. ...odd. My voice may be missing tonight. Hasn't happened like that since ... not sure when.
Adam's playing with his laptop and talking on the phone, probably to his ex. The one he fucked. Neighbor didn't show up. Drat. ...He hasn't been doing that lately. ...I think tonight his friends from out of town were going to be showing up, or was that next weekend? I miss seeing him here. He makes things happy around.
Perhaps I'm slightly dehydrated. The back of my throat was yowling at me like I was. I know I've eaten today. I've been trying to lose weight, but somehow failing.
votania says that I have, that perhaps I haven't been seeing it, but she has, and even though the winter's put some more weight back on me, I've definitely gotten skinnier... not sure. Breakfast was an anti-win, a candy bar grabbed on the run out the door at ten or so, then lunch of sloppy-joes (could have done without the butter on the bread... or the bread itself for that matter! or the second helping!) and ice cream for dessert. Dinner, steak, sandwich, and salad. I was skinny in high school because that dear friend of mine Shawn kept "borrowing" my sandwich and my cookies. I got the drink, the carrot sticks, and the apple slices, though. When I get a moment, I think I'm going to, after banishing most of the credit card demons (which requires, alas, the budget to do so), get myself this account paid, and then, with the first of my happy new codes, give myself another account for Rose to use.
(I've gotten a bit of sanity now, so I think it may have been a hydration or blood sugar issue.)