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azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-31 07:48 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-31 07:48 am
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Took advantage of Adam's absence and his stated permission to do whatever I wanted to, last night. Very nice. With Adam, the pleasure is stretched out and comfortable and things take a while and there's a lot of loving emotional happiness mixed in and around.
With R, things are a lot shorter, a lot faster, a lot more intense. Lots of NRE going on. Something about the way he and I physically fit together is exciting. But there's little to none of the emotional security that I have with Adam.
If I had to choose one, I'd choose the emotional half, the part of a relationship that allows me to snuggle up to someone when I sleep. I was never able to snuggle up to BJ like that, past the first few days we shared the same bed. The longer I share a bed with Adam, the more I'm able to snuggle up. I can't sleep next to R, not in a bed. I can use him as a pillow on the couch and sleep like that, but not side by side in a bed.
With R, things are a lot shorter, a lot faster, a lot more intense. Lots of NRE going on. Something about the way he and I physically fit together is exciting. But there's little to none of the emotional security that I have with Adam.
If I had to choose one, I'd choose the emotional half, the part of a relationship that allows me to snuggle up to someone when I sleep. I was never able to snuggle up to BJ like that, past the first few days we shared the same bed. The longer I share a bed with Adam, the more I'm able to snuggle up. I can't sleep next to R, not in a bed. I can use him as a pillow on the couch and sleep like that, but not side by side in a bed.