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azurelunatic) wrote2002-11-16 12:49 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-11-16 12:49 am
You know...
...I don't think the crowbar joke is going to hurt anymore, now that I know how reciprocal it has to be, for him to mention it and be joking.
Like all good jokes, it's only a half-joke. It would take a crowbar to pry me off him: we both know this. But, as he can say it as a joke, this means that he wouldn't pry me from him: not with a crowbar, not with the powers of pursuasion and detachment that we both know he has at his disposal: the power to distance himself from others, practiced many years. And again, like all good jokes, it's double, even triple, edged. I wouldn't, couldn't bring myself to, dislodge him from me, as he's attached just as tightly. Not as obviously, but perhaps he holds all the more tightly to the edges of my mind, the center of my heart, for his dearth of other people to be intimate with... It would take far more than a crowbar to dislodge him, now that he is becoming convinced that he has me, and that I do not wish to let go either.
Like all good jokes, it's only a half-joke. It would take a crowbar to pry me off him: we both know this. But, as he can say it as a joke, this means that he wouldn't pry me from him: not with a crowbar, not with the powers of pursuasion and detachment that we both know he has at his disposal: the power to distance himself from others, practiced many years. And again, like all good jokes, it's double, even triple, edged. I wouldn't, couldn't bring myself to, dislodge him from me, as he's attached just as tightly. Not as obviously, but perhaps he holds all the more tightly to the edges of my mind, the center of my heart, for his dearth of other people to be intimate with... It would take far more than a crowbar to dislodge him, now that he is becoming convinced that he has me, and that I do not wish to let go either.