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azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-03 06:46 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-03 06:46 pm
Dream:
Dreamed that I was in a very large apartment complex, and that they were having a dinner of salad and pizza and festive games and stuff for the college students. Mama and Ginger and Ginger's whole family had shown up in the apartment. There was a baby cockroach from Chernobyl scuttering into the house, and Ginger was protecting it, so I eventually shooed it outside. I was a college student, so I went out and sat at the table.
They had all sorts of offers, for stuff we could try for free, or they could pay us to try stuff, or they could pay us if we won games. I was busy doing that and enjoying dinner when someone I knew from LJ, or thought I knew from LJ, came up and told me that my ex-fiance needed to talk to me.
My immediate reaction, while Not Pretty, was stifled, and I finally agreed to meet up with him: in a chat program.
I had thought that this guy was my friend, but he went back to BJ and told him that he could see why BJ disliked me so much because I was so toxic that he could barely stand the three minutes he was with me.
I was insulted, and tried to figure out what went wrong, and then got it: the reminder of BJ brought up all the negative emotions from everything that went on, so gods help me but I was toxic -- within the aura of BJ. Without his presence, I'm just fine.
They had all sorts of offers, for stuff we could try for free, or they could pay us to try stuff, or they could pay us if we won games. I was busy doing that and enjoying dinner when someone I knew from LJ, or thought I knew from LJ, came up and told me that my ex-fiance needed to talk to me.
My immediate reaction, while Not Pretty, was stifled, and I finally agreed to meet up with him: in a chat program.
I had thought that this guy was my friend, but he went back to BJ and told him that he could see why BJ disliked me so much because I was so toxic that he could barely stand the three minutes he was with me.
I was insulted, and tried to figure out what went wrong, and then got it: the reminder of BJ brought up all the negative emotions from everything that went on, so gods help me but I was toxic -- within the aura of BJ. Without his presence, I'm just fine.
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BJ was a high school friend-who-I-couldn't-stand, and wound up being so... himself... that the only thing that could have saved our relationship was separation.