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azurelunatic) wrote2001-07-27 02:21 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2001-07-27 02:21 pm
Hobbies
Darkside has apparently made a hobby out of getting me to smile.
It's not like it's difficult. I'm one of the more social people that he knows, and I laugh, I smile, I talk. More difficult is to ram some sort of insight through my head, the sort that makes me shut the hell up while I try to get my mind around it, or shut the hell up because I just don't have anything worth speaking of.
But Darkside has decided that he's making a hobby of getting me to smile.
It's not like he told me or anything. But you just know that that's what he's doing, when he says something perfectly outrageous when I've been sober-faced for a minute, and then I crack a grin, and he says, "Oh good, I got you to smile," or "See? You smiled."
And he smiles back at me, this little smirk of absolute delight, and I have to smile back at him, because the world looks entirely different when he's smiling. And then he asks me why I'm suddenly smiling so much, and I make an excuse... I can't, really, in all politeness, tell Darkside that I'm suddenly smiling like a lunatic because he's made me smile, and that's made him smile, and him smiling has made me smile more, because it feels so good to see him happy....
I wonder if he knows that he grins like a lunatic after he's made me smile.
It's not like it's difficult. I'm one of the more social people that he knows, and I laugh, I smile, I talk. More difficult is to ram some sort of insight through my head, the sort that makes me shut the hell up while I try to get my mind around it, or shut the hell up because I just don't have anything worth speaking of.
But Darkside has decided that he's making a hobby of getting me to smile.
It's not like he told me or anything. But you just know that that's what he's doing, when he says something perfectly outrageous when I've been sober-faced for a minute, and then I crack a grin, and he says, "Oh good, I got you to smile," or "See? You smiled."
And he smiles back at me, this little smirk of absolute delight, and I have to smile back at him, because the world looks entirely different when he's smiling. And then he asks me why I'm suddenly smiling so much, and I make an excuse... I can't, really, in all politeness, tell Darkside that I'm suddenly smiling like a lunatic because he's made me smile, and that's made him smile, and him smiling has made me smile more, because it feels so good to see him happy....
I wonder if he knows that he grins like a lunatic after he's made me smile.