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azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-08 07:13 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-08 07:13 am
Odd, really.
Darkside usually makes a point of going to movies alone. In the past, he's actively resisted seeing movies other than by himself.
This time, he's ... I wouldn't call it 'making an effort', really, but he's not hindering my efforts to spend time with him, and in fact making subtle flickers that suggest he'd like to watch this movie with me.
This is a drastic change from before. Instead of making comments about the delights of solitude, and his distinctly curmudgeonly attitude, and his awkward schedule, and how busy he always is, in a cool, off-putting tone, this time he's been making regretful-sounding comments about the volatility of his schedule, and seeing what he can do, and now that his schedule's settled into place, he's been speaking about the unreliability of movie availability in the theatre closest to me, in the tone of someone who's been disappointed often, and not caring to have a friend's hopes built up only to be collapsed. The things he says are so similar, the differences so subtle, that it's not easy to sort out what exactly has changed. I've just known him far too long, and far too deeply, to let changes slip by unnoticed.
After (not directly but very clearly) cautioning me on the illogic of pinning my hopes on seeing this movie with him, the random boppings of fate being what they are, he mentioned that another movie he'd like to see sometime soon is the latest James Bond. I happily agreed that that would be another movie I would like to see with him, and again, his lack of the 'I tend to see movies without company' response was notable. He instead went into happy-movie-geek mode.
While happy-movie-geek is one of his less guarded faces, it's also one of his masks. One of his primary masks.
"Interesting. Very interesting," as he would say.
This time, he's ... I wouldn't call it 'making an effort', really, but he's not hindering my efforts to spend time with him, and in fact making subtle flickers that suggest he'd like to watch this movie with me.
This is a drastic change from before. Instead of making comments about the delights of solitude, and his distinctly curmudgeonly attitude, and his awkward schedule, and how busy he always is, in a cool, off-putting tone, this time he's been making regretful-sounding comments about the volatility of his schedule, and seeing what he can do, and now that his schedule's settled into place, he's been speaking about the unreliability of movie availability in the theatre closest to me, in the tone of someone who's been disappointed often, and not caring to have a friend's hopes built up only to be collapsed. The things he says are so similar, the differences so subtle, that it's not easy to sort out what exactly has changed. I've just known him far too long, and far too deeply, to let changes slip by unnoticed.
After (not directly but very clearly) cautioning me on the illogic of pinning my hopes on seeing this movie with him, the random boppings of fate being what they are, he mentioned that another movie he'd like to see sometime soon is the latest James Bond. I happily agreed that that would be another movie I would like to see with him, and again, his lack of the 'I tend to see movies without company' response was notable. He instead went into happy-movie-geek mode.
While happy-movie-geek is one of his less guarded faces, it's also one of his masks. One of his primary masks.
"Interesting. Very interesting," as he would say.