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azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-15 11:46 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-12-15 11:46 am
Sanity Rules
I have made a new Rule: no sex when depressed.
Sex when depressed just makes me feel worse.
Now, if I can just stick to that Rule, I should be a lot safer with myself. Had I gotten it on last night, I would have been ashamed of myself. I don't like making other people give me pity-fucks, no matter how attracted to me they are. When I'm depressed, it's a pity-fuck, and I'm using them.
I might make an exception if in a long-term, committed relationship with someone. Maybe.
Sex when depressed just makes me feel worse.
Now, if I can just stick to that Rule, I should be a lot safer with myself. Had I gotten it on last night, I would have been ashamed of myself. I don't like making other people give me pity-fucks, no matter how attracted to me they are. When I'm depressed, it's a pity-fuck, and I'm using them.
I might make an exception if in a long-term, committed relationship with someone. Maybe.
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Think about it. Sex releases do-this-more endorphins. You don't want to encourage depression to believe it's wanted.
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One thing I don't want is more depression, even if it is a clearly trackable hormone-cyclical thing.
...Since I've started tracking it, and since I've been on the Pill to be *able* to track it, it's gotten a lot more manageable.