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[azurelunatic]

I wish I did not feel so isolated. I wish I did not feel like I were withdrawing from the company of the people I cared the most for. The upcoming LJ post limit gives me the claustrophobic shudders.

I wish I did not feel like the people I care most for were withdrawing from me. I wish I did not feel threatened by the prospect of others' happiness that does not involve me.

I wish I were not making my boyfriend feel more lonely.

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[elance.livejournal.com]

*offers hugs*

I'll be on AIM, if you wanna talk. :)

[azurelunatic]

Cool. Though the person I *really* want to talk to will likely be busy... Real Life having come up and done stuff.

[iroshi.livejournal.com]

There *will* be unpacking tonight. I, for one, am not withdrawing from you. HAVE been busy lately, and *not* just being googly-eyed. Too much stuff to do. Am working late today, even. *sigh*

[azurelunatic]

Short unpack: Wasn't you.

Longer unpack: California is a long way away.

[iroshi.livejournal.com]

Short unpack: Wasn't you.

Knew that. Meant that as reassurance, actually.

And life is entirely too *busy* right now. Worked 'til 7 last night. Took 7:28 train home. Walked home in cold and dark and long story that will hit journal later...am attempting to get AIM on work computer, though. ^_~

[azurelunatic]

Busy it indeed seems! Wow!

*giggle* I had an excellent time yesterday, and everybody's happier. Even him.

[azurelunatic]

and it looks like someone else has been having at least as much scheduleweirdnesscrunch. She and I talked on AIM at about 2 in the morning, right before I had to crash... :D ... all is good.