love or just contact?

[azurelunatic]

lately I've been craving physical contact. Not sex, just ... human touch. Adult human touch. Adult human touch with someone I care about. Adult human touch with someone I care about of compatible sexuality.

That really narrows it.

Been kind of dragging around school/home for lack of it. Don't really know how to explain it to my sister. She's been worried. Fixed it momentarily a while ago when I realized that it was the absence of someone special to me that was doing it, but ...

Human touch.

No man is an island. No woman either.

Especially not this woman.

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[fosfomifira.livejournal.com]

that's exactly howI feel, and you know it.

I want to care about someone who cares about me and give that person pleasure with my touch.

touching

[azurelunatic]

Lately, with as specific as my mind/body setup has been, all I've wanted to do is hold the hand of one specific person.

Just that. Only that.

More than that would be too much right now.

There's too much emotional baggage both of us have right now to even be safe *thinking* about more than holding hands... though more than holding hands would be very nice, at some point down the road.

Every time we look at each other, it's almost a touch. Almost. In every way but the way that counts.

In my mind, I've been holding hands with him for the past three weeks, constantly.

There's definitely something going on, but I'm waiting to see what happens of itself.

I can't push him. He means too much to me.

Meanwhile, I'm hoping I dream of him...but not too invasively. I don't want him to accidentally overhear it if I'm speaking his name while I sleep....