Just as I was Given Darkside's Name in that dream I had. There's a sound, one I can't reproduce outside my head, sounding somewhat like the striking of a large gong, and a Feeling. In the dream there was a word. I have a word; not the same word as in the dream, but... very close. I think that's a may-be-someday rather than an Is Now. That word, along with the feeling, sums it up so well that I avoid saying the mundane word to anyone.
His Name makes a lovely chord with mine.
I have one of those pens with me right now on the desk, only it's a ten-color one that looks suspiciously like a dildo.
E feels a lot like I used to feel; it's an interesting blue/yellow combination.
Darkside is most often that feeling in my head, rather that Darkside or his legal name. I demonstrated on Halloween night that "m'love" is something he's also often tagged with, and when I'm not self-censoring, that comes out... I do so appreciate it that he understood how very tired I was and took care of me, knowing that I never normally would have directly called him that, except that I was exhausted and my censor was down, and therefore instead of blaming me, he needed to be more gentle than usual with me. Usually when I think "m'love", if it comes out it comes out as "My dear best friend"...
E feels a lot like I used to feel; it's an interesting blue/yellow combination.
It's a sky/air/light combination, yes. There's more to it than that, but that's the first, most visible layer. Hence the lightbearer/lightwalker title...but we can't quite figure out what the English is supposed to be.
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His Name makes a lovely chord with mine.
I have one of those pens with me right now on the desk, only it's a ten-color one that looks suspiciously like a dildo.
E feels a lot like I used to feel; it's an interesting blue/yellow combination.
Darkside is most often that feeling in my head, rather that Darkside or his legal name. I demonstrated on Halloween night that "m'love" is something he's also often tagged with, and when I'm not self-censoring, that comes out... I do so appreciate it that he understood how very tired I was and took care of me, knowing that I never normally would have directly called him that, except that I was exhausted and my censor was down, and therefore instead of blaming me, he needed to be more gentle than usual with me. Usually when I think "m'love", if it comes out it comes out as "My dear best friend"...
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It's a sky/air/light combination, yes. There's more to it than that, but that's the first, most visible layer. Hence the lightbearer/lightwalker title...but we can't quite figure out what the English is supposed to be.
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