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[azurelunatic]

It's not about the art. I know my capabilities. I have been a good artist before, excellent for a high school student, and I can be again, after I get my hands accustomed to laying out in line and color what I feel and see.

That post was self-pity, no more and no less, which is why the comment was deleted without response. When I'm in a mental place where a child interrupting me can shut me down and send me into my room with the door locked, something's not right.

votania's relayed comment about the Temple's energy sounded like an accusation, in that mindframe. I personally haven't been cleansing the Temple as a whole. I personally have only been trying to keep my room clean and happy, keep the Temple physically clean. Never mind the "household happiness" candles I have been burning. They obviously haven't been doing anything...

I feel guilty for having taken yesterday off and not cleaned like hell in everyone's absence, now. I could have. I should have. I didn't.

So I feel like I suck.


...I'm leaving comments on. Comments that are of the "It's not so bad as it seems... you can do this!! <3 I know you can!!!" nature, especially with the helpful advice, by people who don't know this side of me well... they will probably wind up deleted.

Marah's out. Trust me, you don't want her replying to those...

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[dragontdc.livejournal.com]

Got a friend in Florida with TMJ. She has the same complaint.

[azurelunatic]

I can thank a double-eared bout with a very nasty form of Swimmer's Ear for making me unable to chew for what felt like about a week, disaligning my jaws to the point where I had to wear a night guard to be able to close my mouth again properly, and adding to me not being able to use my jaws quite normally after that.

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[dragontdc.livejournal.com]

Ouch!

[azurelunatic]

Yeah.