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azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-12 02:04 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-12 02:04 pm
Stress
I guess it's a measure of my humanity that I'm smiling again today. I figured out what was wrong with me -- in Final Fantasy 9 terms, my hit points were down to 50, and my MP stood at 0 or 1 ... and while my HP crawled up to 200 or so overnight, my MP was still down around 10 or so.
It turned out to be leaking off towards other people who perhaps needed it more. I corrected the unrestricted flow, and will henceforth only be firing off bursts of white light when I've got the energy enough to spare, rather than leaking it bit by bit and not taking the time to recover myself.
I woke up this morning with red and green eyes. My eyes are normally hazel and photograph as brown or black, but this morning I woke up with the irises of my eyes this lovely shade of teal blue/green, and the whites of my eyes blazing pink.
After several hours, the red has died away, leaving me looking more like a college student and less like some Creature from the Depths of the Weird Planet.
I still haven't cried.
It turned out to be leaking off towards other people who perhaps needed it more. I corrected the unrestricted flow, and will henceforth only be firing off bursts of white light when I've got the energy enough to spare, rather than leaking it bit by bit and not taking the time to recover myself.
I woke up this morning with red and green eyes. My eyes are normally hazel and photograph as brown or black, but this morning I woke up with the irises of my eyes this lovely shade of teal blue/green, and the whites of my eyes blazing pink.
After several hours, the red has died away, leaving me looking more like a college student and less like some Creature from the Depths of the Weird Planet.
I still haven't cried.