azurelunatic | ...a few crumbs from the pie

So where did it go?

Once upon a time, I was Da Bomb. Or something like that. I was cute, I was 15 years old and I had a girlfriend and she and I were in love with the most beautiful guy in the world, and she and I were going to get married after we graduated from college.

So where did it go?

I can't track the day that the ultimate coolness left my life. It revived a few days ago when we were pimpin' the Buick down Central. That was cool. That was ultimately cool. Work isn't cool, though. School can be. Babysitting isn't, not anymore.

I feel like I should be in Tune with the Universe.

That's not quite the thing for it. Right now I'm a part of the universe, and it's progressing as normally. There have been times when I have been ultimately cool, and if I knew where to poke, the world would have rolled in the direction I specified. That, right there, is a great feeling.

I have to watch out for it, though.

But every time I hear certain songs, I get flashed right back to CTY (Center for Talented Youth) back in 1995, and I ... gods.

I miss you guys. I love you guys. Remember how we were going to buy an island and all live there? What ever happened to the dream?

I don't want to let my dreams die one by one as I grow old. Stay true to my vision, is what I've been told.

How do I keep the dreams from dying? Some of them I've grown out of, but some...

I can't let those dreams die.