Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2003-04-02 05:34 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2003-04-02 05:34 pm
*sigh* I'm really a completely fucked-up creature.
<suspicion>He's got a girlfriend, doesn't he.</suspicion>
Really, Marah. Just because he does his normal thing of not giving out details of what's up with him, you immediately think that he is not giving you details that he doesn't feel we have a need to know, because he's in a bit of a rush?
Yes, he did answer the phone coolly. Yes, he did say he was leaving somewhere. Do, darling, try to trust him enough to hope that he might do us the courtesy of telling us when there has been another girl entering into his life?
...If he thinks we'd care. He tends to hide himself away from us when he wouldn't think we'd care. He might hide something from us if he thought it would hurt us. Like his religion.
Does he hide important stuff from us? He didn't hide anything when we asked. He sometimes doesn't tell us stuff, but he lets us know he's not telling. He never hides.
But we don't ask if he has a girlfriend.
Then let's.
And if he does? If he does...
If he does, he'll tell us, and we'll cry. And we'll know.
I don't want to know. I don't want to have to deal with that.
Remember Shawn?
Ass-bastard.
That's what our beloved thinks of him too. And he was. Remember when he started dating our sister? They told us. And then they held us.
He does do that. ...Because it's him. Because it's him, we can ask.
Really, Marah. Just because he does his normal thing of not giving out details of what's up with him, you immediately think that he is not giving you details that he doesn't feel we have a need to know, because he's in a bit of a rush?
Yes, he did answer the phone coolly. Yes, he did say he was leaving somewhere. Do, darling, try to trust him enough to hope that he might do us the courtesy of telling us when there has been another girl entering into his life?
...If he thinks we'd care. He tends to hide himself away from us when he wouldn't think we'd care. He might hide something from us if he thought it would hurt us. Like his religion.
Does he hide important stuff from us? He didn't hide anything when we asked. He sometimes doesn't tell us stuff, but he lets us know he's not telling. He never hides.
But we don't ask if he has a girlfriend.
Then let's.
And if he does? If he does...
If he does, he'll tell us, and we'll cry. And we'll know.
I don't want to know. I don't want to have to deal with that.
Remember Shawn?
Ass-bastard.
That's what our beloved thinks of him too. And he was. Remember when he started dating our sister? They told us. And then they held us.
He does do that. ...Because it's him. Because it's him, we can ask.
he's not poly?
Re: he's not poly?
Re: he's not poly?
please excuse me for sticking my big nose where it's not wanted...
I don't want to know. I don't want to have to deal with that.
but if you don't ask, the question will still be eating at you, which only prolongs the hurt. ask the question, get the answer (and the hurt) over with, move on.
easy to say but very much harder to do, i know.
Re: please excuse me for sticking my big nose where it's not wanted...
I know. Trouble is convincing Marah. Only possible means of convincing her: Darkside is Darkside. She trusts Darkside.
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Shawn is the ass-bastard. Our beloved Darkside thinks Shawn is an ass-bastard. Shawn was an ass-bastard. Darkside started dating our sister. Darkside and our sister told us. Darkside and our sister held us. Darkside does do that. Because it's Darkside, we can ask.
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