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azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-18 07:19 am
azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-18 07:19 am
Extracting Information
Darkside spent half an hour extracting the name of the person who had attempted to request a date of me on Thursday.
...Darkside still comes first. I want to make this abundantly clear. Darkside is my best friend, and I don't even hardly *know* the guy I was talking with last night.
Indications are that this guy and I will get to know each other a lot better, but Darkside was still here first. I thanked him, this morning, for telling me six months in the dream we had. He was slightly confused -- well, I would be too, if someone thanked me for something I'd said in a dream I don't remember.
I have a month more to go on that six month restriction, and I just realized a month or so ago that "Give me six months" means "Don't bother me for six months, give me six months to heal", but also means "Don't give up on me until the six months are up, I need time to recover, and if you give up on me before I've recovered, and I end up feeling the same way for you, that's not fair to either of us".
This six month restriction, which will expire in a month, gives me a solid reason to say "I need some time to think about this" .... I leaped before looking into my most recent engagement after a strong feeling of Fate prompted me to.
I need to gather my facts before attempting to fuck up again.
...Darkside still comes first. I want to make this abundantly clear. Darkside is my best friend, and I don't even hardly *know* the guy I was talking with last night.
Indications are that this guy and I will get to know each other a lot better, but Darkside was still here first. I thanked him, this morning, for telling me six months in the dream we had. He was slightly confused -- well, I would be too, if someone thanked me for something I'd said in a dream I don't remember.
I have a month more to go on that six month restriction, and I just realized a month or so ago that "Give me six months" means "Don't bother me for six months, give me six months to heal", but also means "Don't give up on me until the six months are up, I need time to recover, and if you give up on me before I've recovered, and I end up feeling the same way for you, that's not fair to either of us".
This six month restriction, which will expire in a month, gives me a solid reason to say "I need some time to think about this" .... I leaped before looking into my most recent engagement after a strong feeling of Fate prompted me to.
I need to gather my facts before attempting to fuck up again.
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