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azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-18 05:39 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2001-09-18 05:39 pm
Uh-oh.
Well, I just got growled at.
Darkside was trying to sleep when I called. Feelings of guilt? I had to tell him near-immediately. He growled and made unhappy noises at me for waking him. The topic will be covered more in-depth tomorrow morning.
I'm somewhat apprehensive. What if Darkside is pissed at me? What if Darkside is pissed at the guy?
No strings attached, Adam said, and I did full disclosure beforehand on who I love, so things ought to go fairly smoothly. I'm sure Darkside will cheer me on -- after all, if I'm going after someone else, I'm not going after him...
...yes, I'm lonely.
Making out with Adam is nice, but there's this weird feeling that goes along with it, almost a burning feeling somewhere deep inside me, like some heated chemicals spilled on my back, that Adam and I had better be really damn careful what we do together so that we don't fuck things up for each other and ourselves really royally.
I love you, Darkside, no matter what I do with anyone else, I still love you, and I love you a lot, and I love you more than it's polite or easy to express. It doesn't look like you want me, though, and I like Adam. But that's all it really seems to be, there. It's like, lust, and friendship and stuff.
I love you, Darkside. ...if you're ever going to love me, I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you catch up to yourself and catch up to me before I move on. I love you.
Darkside was trying to sleep when I called. Feelings of guilt? I had to tell him near-immediately. He growled and made unhappy noises at me for waking him. The topic will be covered more in-depth tomorrow morning.
I'm somewhat apprehensive. What if Darkside is pissed at me? What if Darkside is pissed at the guy?
No strings attached, Adam said, and I did full disclosure beforehand on who I love, so things ought to go fairly smoothly. I'm sure Darkside will cheer me on -- after all, if I'm going after someone else, I'm not going after him...
...yes, I'm lonely.
Making out with Adam is nice, but there's this weird feeling that goes along with it, almost a burning feeling somewhere deep inside me, like some heated chemicals spilled on my back, that Adam and I had better be really damn careful what we do together so that we don't fuck things up for each other and ourselves really royally.
I love you, Darkside, no matter what I do with anyone else, I still love you, and I love you a lot, and I love you more than it's polite or easy to express. It doesn't look like you want me, though, and I like Adam. But that's all it really seems to be, there. It's like, lust, and friendship and stuff.
I love you, Darkside. ...if you're ever going to love me, I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you catch up to yourself and catch up to me before I move on. I love you.