Everyone knows (and several have correctly listed) what your worst fear is. I'm not sure what my worst fear is, honestly. I can think of several, and I am not sure which is "worst". For those who might wonder, Chris isn't anywhere up there. Being my soulmate, after all, means that anything that happens between us is only for this lifetime...we'll be back together again once we die. (Bwahahaha! He cannot escape me! *evil grin*)
Anyway, one of my greatest fears is boredom.
Another fear is that I've made up a hell of a lot of the things that my life revolves around in order to escape the first fear.
Those are the two biggest ones, I think.
The other one, the one that screws up my life the *most*, and that tends to sneak up on me, that only my real friends notice...is that I'm afraid of success. I've been accused of being afraid of failure, but I'm not, really. I'm afraid of success. I know, deep down, that I can succeed at damn near anything that I really try at.
But I've also found that well over 75% of the things that I succeed at turn out to be boring once I've gotten past the challenge of doing them, and they come with responsibilities, and then expectations, and requirements, and...I am seldom able to succeed *twice*, because I'm not capable of really trying *twice*, because...well...I get bored. I'm afraid of success. It usually leads to disaster, for me.
I try to find places where I'm just happy without struggle...
Oh dear. I'm going to have to make my own post on this one, aren't I. You have the damnedest way of asking questions that require a whole post... *sigh*
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azurelunatic) wrote2003-05-11 10:48 pm
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Mine- Love.
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Mine = Being alone the rest of my life
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Mine...I have too many to list, really. But fear of rejection and of people getting angry at me are two big ones.
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Anyway, one of my greatest fears is boredom.
Another fear is that I've made up a hell of a lot of the things that my life revolves around in order to escape the first fear.
Those are the two biggest ones, I think.
The other one, the one that screws up my life the *most*, and that tends to sneak up on me, that only my real friends notice...is that I'm afraid of success. I've been accused of being afraid of failure, but I'm not, really. I'm afraid of success. I know, deep down, that I can succeed at damn near anything that I really try at.
But I've also found that well over 75% of the things that I succeed at turn out to be boring once I've gotten past the challenge of doing them, and they come with responsibilities, and then expectations, and requirements, and...I am seldom able to succeed *twice*, because I'm not capable of really trying *twice*, because...well...I get bored. I'm afraid of success. It usually leads to disaster, for me.
I try to find places where I'm just happy without struggle...
Oh dear. I'm going to have to make my own post on this one, aren't I. You have the damnedest way of asking questions that require a whole post... *sigh*
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