awww, fuck

[azurelunatic]

Think I just provoked an angst-ridden post by good friend.
Fuck.

It's never my intention to make other people unhappy, unless that person has done something major to me or my friends, but somehow I end up doing that anyway with my friends.

Reality probably overrides online, when it comes to stuff like relationships and stuff.

Even if the real-life relationship is just theoretical and not even a possibility yet.

I don't want to hurt my online friend, but ...

...this thing that's happening now...

...it could well be the most important relationship I've ever had.

I can't risk screwing it up, and I'm afraid that by continuing the online relationship as long as I have, I may have already screwed with it.

I hope it's recoverable.

Technically, it should be, since neither of us is promised to anyone, much less each other.

I hope it works.

Comments

No you did not cause the angst

[godai.livejournal.com]

Hun, the reason i wrote that had nothing to do with the conversation with you.


Well not how you think. I can put my feelings aside for a momment when dealing with friends who need the person to talk to.

My problems get put on a back burner when i help someone get problems off thier chest. And thus i don't have to deal with them.

My angst is from work and my rl problems. I was depressive long before i met you :)

I've been stressing at work cause i'm new and haven't gotten into a habit yet and got talked to by the boss cause i wasn't getting in early enough.

Besides the general loneliness issue in rl.

I was feeling ignored in the irc channel i frequent. I mean its a little thing but.

People come into the channel and get hi's and hellos, snuggles, pounces and god knows what else.

and today I didn't get any response and people were in the channel.

Yes I could complain about lack of snuggles etc.
like some people do but i don't want "sympathy snuggles"


So dont fret it wasn't anything you said that would cause my angst post. its just alot of little stuff.


*Huggs*