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azurelunatic) wrote2003-06-14 06:41 am
azurelunatic) wrote2003-06-14 06:41 am
Shower Meme: popefelix interviews me.
1) In a recent post, you described your father as a mage. Was he an active practitioner, or was his magick unconscious?
2) Give the names, and a brief description, of all the people in your head.
3) Do you ever regret growing up without television for any reason? For example, there's a certain shared cultural background among people of our generation that comes from the television shows we watched as children.
4) Did you become a multiple through some conscious process, or was it in response to some traumatic event?
5) Do you think I'm cute?
1) In a recent post, you described your father as a mage. Was he an active practitioner, or was his magick unconscious?
He was a would-have-been mage. A traumatic event (the voodoo doll thing I know I mentioned at some point) decided him that he never ever wanted to mess with that again, and he successfully convinced the upper layer of his mind that it was all hooey. He kept a respectful distance from anything smacking overtly of magery after that, though he did some things that I, as an adult mage myself now, know to have been unconscious acts of magic.
2) Give the names, and a brief description, of all the people in your head.
First and foremost, there's the primary set: I'm known variously as Joan, Joanie, Azz. I'm the collected social interface of the years, composed of the better attributes of most of the past personae. I'm the one who mostly keeps this journal, who people who meet me in person get to talk to unless other things happen. The name comes from our birth name first, and then the journal name, as we've come to be known by that. Address us by that name, and you get that personality, or anyone who cares to show up; it's both me, and the collective.
The second layer is our Warrior,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
garnetdagger. Physically, our body is deceptively strong, and we've had a little training in fighting, both clean and dirty. We also fight with words, and garnetdagger does that excellently. There was an LJ creep who needed his ass handed to him, and she did that a while back.
Then there's Marah. Lately, she's the one who's been the least out. She's the one who seems to take the hits, and she has a lot of general anger.
Finally, there's N%, who does not give out her full name in public. She seems to be the youngest, though she's progressed from socially 5 to 7 or so, thanks to being out when we were working in our Object Oriented Analysis class. She has very little in the way of social graces, though she can follow computers. She has huge and messy handwriting.
3) Do you ever regret growing up without television for any reason? For example, there's a certain shared cultural background among people of our generation that comes from the television shows we watched as children.
I was a little grumpy about not getting my regular Star Trek when I was a teenager, but for the most part, I still think TV is stupid and a waste of time.
4) Did you become a multiple through some conscious process, or was it in response to some traumatic event?
As clearly as I've been able to trace, there was no one specific trauma that set me on the path to multiplicity, but I am fairly certain that I became multiple in order to fit in with my schoolmates socially. I can mirror the dominant tone of any social group that I like, ranging from serious and scholarly to giggly and fluffy. As such, the "real me" is difficult to pin down, and includes all of the above. Once I noticed that I was heading towards multiple, I encouraged the process. I do know that when I was a teenager, having more than one of me likely saved my life, as I've been struggling with depression for a long time. Somehow I managed to hang on until the next Star Trek movie came out during the first half of my freshman year of high school, and by then we had a better coping system in place; Shanna never let me realize how dangerously depressed I was, and would take over from time to time until certain crisis moments had passed.
5) Do you think I'm cute?
Yeah. Not as cute as Darkside, but that's only to be expected. No one's as cute as he is.
2) Give the names, and a brief description, of all the people in your head.
3) Do you ever regret growing up without television for any reason? For example, there's a certain shared cultural background among people of our generation that comes from the television shows we watched as children.
4) Did you become a multiple through some conscious process, or was it in response to some traumatic event?
5) Do you think I'm cute?
1) In a recent post, you described your father as a mage. Was he an active practitioner, or was his magick unconscious?
He was a would-have-been mage. A traumatic event (the voodoo doll thing I know I mentioned at some point) decided him that he never ever wanted to mess with that again, and he successfully convinced the upper layer of his mind that it was all hooey. He kept a respectful distance from anything smacking overtly of magery after that, though he did some things that I, as an adult mage myself now, know to have been unconscious acts of magic.
2) Give the names, and a brief description, of all the people in your head.
First and foremost, there's the primary set: I'm known variously as Joan, Joanie, Azz. I'm the collected social interface of the years, composed of the better attributes of most of the past personae. I'm the one who mostly keeps this journal, who people who meet me in person get to talk to unless other things happen. The name comes from our birth name first, and then the journal name, as we've come to be known by that. Address us by that name, and you get that personality, or anyone who cares to show up; it's both me, and the collective.
The second layer is our Warrior,
garnetdagger. Physically, our body is deceptively strong, and we've had a little training in fighting, both clean and dirty. We also fight with words, and garnetdagger does that excellently. There was an LJ creep who needed his ass handed to him, and she did that a while back. Then there's Marah. Lately, she's the one who's been the least out. She's the one who seems to take the hits, and she has a lot of general anger.
Finally, there's N%, who does not give out her full name in public. She seems to be the youngest, though she's progressed from socially 5 to 7 or so, thanks to being out when we were working in our Object Oriented Analysis class. She has very little in the way of social graces, though she can follow computers. She has huge and messy handwriting.
3) Do you ever regret growing up without television for any reason? For example, there's a certain shared cultural background among people of our generation that comes from the television shows we watched as children.
I was a little grumpy about not getting my regular Star Trek when I was a teenager, but for the most part, I still think TV is stupid and a waste of time.
4) Did you become a multiple through some conscious process, or was it in response to some traumatic event?
As clearly as I've been able to trace, there was no one specific trauma that set me on the path to multiplicity, but I am fairly certain that I became multiple in order to fit in with my schoolmates socially. I can mirror the dominant tone of any social group that I like, ranging from serious and scholarly to giggly and fluffy. As such, the "real me" is difficult to pin down, and includes all of the above. Once I noticed that I was heading towards multiple, I encouraged the process. I do know that when I was a teenager, having more than one of me likely saved my life, as I've been struggling with depression for a long time. Somehow I managed to hang on until the next Star Trek movie came out during the first half of my freshman year of high school, and by then we had a better coping system in place; Shanna never let me realize how dangerously depressed I was, and would take over from time to time until certain crisis moments had passed.
5) Do you think I'm cute?
Yeah. Not as cute as Darkside, but that's only to be expected. No one's as cute as he is.
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