breathing this air

[azurelunatic]

I can feel the magic(k) today. The temple's being cleansed (someone took down a seal; it's back up and the cleansing is driving everything that doesn't belong out) and the scent of the incense, and the clean cool breeze and the music, that together with my morning, is clearing out my head, spinning the love through me.

I don't have to search anymore. I've found love. Darkside. Sis. Adam. Neighbor, Nephew, Uncle Alan. Dawn. Everyone. Shamash.

It's like balancing your proteins. Only some foods have complete proteins, but as long as you get enough of each kind, you're fine. I don't need a One True Love. I've got the spiritual, I've got the physical, I've got the love of the heart, I've got the friends...

...why break my heart looking for what I've got already?

Comments

*purr*

[littleredhead.livejournal.com]

aaah. thank you. i needed that reminder.

and i love the protein analogy.

Re: *purr*

[azurelunatic]

Thank you.

It's something I've been working on in my own head for perhaps ten years now, the necessity of emotional energy balance. It's more complex than just the right negative versus positive; it's got to be all sorts of different emotional energies, just like the chemical balance in the brain's different for all sorts of situations, but there are some forms of equilibrium that are ideal and some that are not.

yes, thank you.

[lionboy.livejournal.com]

No one believes me when I say that. They simply look at me as if I have a penis hydra fo a head. I was wondering if I was the only one. Allz I know is that I would be prety much fucked if I had one person to love in this world. What good is expanding the fear and lonliness to two? Too much pressure on one relationship. No one person could ever be my everything nor could I expect that. I'm getting a serene vibe from you today.

Serene pretty much sums it up.

[azurelunatic]

When you love more than one person, it's not so much fear and lonliness anymore. If one person should leave, even though it's still difficult, it's easier to love that person long-distance when you've got other people to love short-distance all around you.

If you're poly and one of your partners decides not to continue the relationship, then it's easier to say "I love you and I'll miss you" when you've got other people telling them the same thing.

and when you've got friends you love, it's so difficult not to tell them that...

Re: Serene pretty much sums it up.

[lionboy.livejournal.com]

greeting card wisdom for the day: "friends are the family you choose for yourself." I know MY family ain't my kinda people. Alienation and discomfort are my idea of a good time. :P That sort of sarcasm doesn't come across well in email. Not the first or second parts but the last part.