Darkside vs. Panic Attack: Darkside ∞; Panic Attack 50.

[azurelunatic]

Due to Darkside's guardedness about his own worries, I've taken to guarding my own from him as well. I put the situation to him simply: panic attack, and I was needing a shoulder that I trusted briefly.

He got somewhat clipped and forceful with me, and managed to extract an accounting of things. I'd only been intending to ask him to give me virtual hugs and allow me to remain near him while I worked out things myself, but he tugged in the right places, and I told him stuff, and he did his usual thing. (This did include the amusing proposal to drive Shawn insane near to the point of death, Pretender-style...) I told him everything, near enough. What was stressing me out, and why it was stressing me, including Shawn, including why I'm reluctant to let my emotions go here... I could feel him with me at every word. He cares.

It just helps to tell someone these things, sometime. I've been, lately, without that...

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Hi, I saw your post on epicyclical's journal, and I just wanted to know if you'd maybe be willing to spare a code. I realize it's rude of me to just come up and ask, and I apologize. It simply seemed that directnedd would be the best approach. If you would be so kind as to provide me with one, please email me at angelic_cruelty713@yahoo.com. If you think I'm rude and obnoxious, please feel free to delete this post and ignore me forevermore. Either way, thank you for your time.

[azurelunatic]

The reason that I am only willing to give codes to epicyclical herself is because some of the anon people are evil trolls, and I don't want to be giving evil trolls LJ codes. I'm very sorry to not trust anyone, but that's the way it has to be sometimes.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

What happened?

[azurelunatic]

Noticed a problem I had with someone, and let them know that we needed to discuss it. The "we can't discuss it right now but we can discuss it tomorrow" response triggered me, even though there was a time given for discussing it.

Re:

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

Understandable. It's hard for me too when I need to talk about something and can't do it right now because of the other party.

[azurelunatic]

*shudder* It's really bad.

Darkside takes too good care of me... <3