Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2003-07-12 02:27 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2003-07-12 02:27 pm
Lived through all the romance sadly meant for me
Whenever I'm reminded of Darkside, each little thing that's something that I mark as special that he's introduced me to, or that he and I share, or something that's special to him, I grin.
I clasp that silently-enspelled necklace and wonder if he's thinking of me, too. I can almost feel his warm regard enfolding me...
Today it was the movies. James Bond? I remembered that he had recommended that I watch the James Bond movies. I always feel a little odd about watching a movie without him, like it's cheating. And then a zombie movie! Where was he, to sit next to and cling to at the spooky parts? His shoulder is ever my perfect pillow.
I fell asleep to the thought of giving him a backrub, last night, fully clothed, and as platonic as the two of us can get, just the comfort of touch, strong hands unknotting his wiry back. His body is so very warm, broadcasting heat just as he broadcasts his affection for me when unguarded. Physical contact is one of the primary ways I stay connected to people. If I love someone, I'm probably going to want to curl up next to them and stay that way, just snuggling. Darkside's not so much for the snuggling, but he doesn't mind a good backrub.
I clasp that silently-enspelled necklace and wonder if he's thinking of me, too. I can almost feel his warm regard enfolding me...
Today it was the movies. James Bond? I remembered that he had recommended that I watch the James Bond movies. I always feel a little odd about watching a movie without him, like it's cheating. And then a zombie movie! Where was he, to sit next to and cling to at the spooky parts? His shoulder is ever my perfect pillow.
I fell asleep to the thought of giving him a backrub, last night, fully clothed, and as platonic as the two of us can get, just the comfort of touch, strong hands unknotting his wiry back. His body is so very warm, broadcasting heat just as he broadcasts his affection for me when unguarded. Physical contact is one of the primary ways I stay connected to people. If I love someone, I'm probably going to want to curl up next to them and stay that way, just snuggling. Darkside's not so much for the snuggling, but he doesn't mind a good backrub.
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I get giddy around him a lot.