Beauty?

[azurelunatic]

Noticed in the mirror this morning, after I brushed out my fuzzy morning-hair, and put on some concealer and lipstick (I don't know what the weather's doing, but my skin is not happy with it, or maybe it's too happy...) that the woman in the mirror was gorgeous.

I've been noticing my hair a lot lately. It's down past my shoulderblades, but it somehow doesn't feel that long. It's finally as long as Francine's hair in my userpic. It's odd -- I've been staring at that image so much that it's starting to overpower the image in my mirror of "me" -- not a bad thing, just odd.

I suppose that this may be part of why I look in the mirror and see myself, and see differences in myself from my mental image of myself, and I note approvingly that my hair is longer, with richer color, and I'm wearing my glasses so I don't look half-blind, and I have bigger boobs, and I have more color in my face so I look more alive, and my hair is smoother and softer and shines more.

Now, I do consider Francine beautiful.

And it boggles me, when I find that the woman in the mirror could give Francine-in-the-icon a run for her money and win.

Comments

of course!

[eng1ne.livejournal.com]

From the pictures you have on your linked site, I always thought you were very pretty.

I understand what you mean about what you see in the mirror.. it's the same for me.. sometimes I think the mirror image looks terrible, sometimes I think it looks good.

When I go through photo albums of my life I invariably think my younger selves looked better than my current self.

By the way, as it concerns the other aspects of 'you'.. does your plurality have a consensus about your self-image?

. . .

This has nothing to do with anything, but do I get to be on your friends list too, at some point? Is there a hazing process?

Re: of course!

[eng1ne.livejournal.com]

I thought I was fairly complimentary.. of course I don't expect a response to that... but I did ask a direct question.

Did I say something wrong?

Re: of course!

[azurelunatic]

No, not at all.

I don't answer all my comments immediately, or even in the order that they're recieved.

Self-image etc.

[azurelunatic]

Naomi is unaware/thinks it irrelevant. Marah's opinion flip-flops violently with mood swings. She's the most likely to preen, and the most likely to think we're lookign ghastly, or be crushed because we're ghastly. Dagger kicks the ass of anyone who makes unkind comments about our appearance.

Re: Self-image etc.

[eng1ne.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the explanantion. I'm sure it's like explaining blue to a blind man, but I appreciate the effort.

Re: Self-image etc.

[azurelunatic]

Perhaps so.

Mama's blind friend Lee has one of the most vivid imaginations for color that my wouldn't-have-been mother-in-law ever came across.

Re: Self-image etc.

[eng1ne.livejournal.com]

Speaking of..

You may find this Scientific American article fascinating. My father had a form of what is described below.

(using link provided by SciAm.com)

Scientific American: Hearing Colors, Tasting Shapes [ NEUROSCIENCE ]
People with synesthesia--whose senses blend together--are providing valuable clues to understanding the organization and functions of the human brain

Re: Self-image etc.

[azurelunatic]

Thanks for the link!

friends list

[azurelunatic]

It's more of a settling-in process than a hazing process. I don't do automatic friendbacks anymore, now that my friends list has gotten a little too insane for me. I'm not even sure what my standards are, but I like to keep the number of people I have friended below 200, because, you know, insanity.

Re: friends list

[eng1ne.livejournal.com]

Ok, thanks! ^_^

Francine's pretty, but...

[popefelix.livejournal.com]

she's so flat!

Re: Francine's pretty, but...

[azurelunatic]

Hee.

Yes; I am apt to dismiss women with C-cups as having small breasts.

Re: Francine's pretty, but...

[popefelix.livejournal.com]

no, I mean really flat. Like, 2-dimensional, even.

Re: Francine's pretty, but...

[azurelunatic]

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[sithjawa.livejournal.com]

Hottie!

I have two mental images of myself. One is a bit like my userpic but with shorter hair, and the other is like what I really look like but a little different. The one that's like my userpic is the naturally always-happy one, and the one that looks like me is the prone-to-introspection-and-depression-and-being-responsible one. They're both cuter than I really am *g*

[azurelunatic]

You are pretty.

'How you really are' is how you see yourself when you look in the mirror, for that definition.

Remember: the casual observer is a twit.

I see you prettier than the casual observer does.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

If that's true, I must be pretty fugly.

[azurelunatic]

Unclear phrasing. The way she was using 'the way she really looks' was not truly the way she really looks -- it's what she thinks of herself when she looks in the mirror.

The way she really looks is something completely different, and something that she, with her biases about the way she looks, will never know.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

That's what I mean... the way I see myself isn't very pretty. That is clearly pretty different from how some other people see me, and damned if I know what I really look like. :)