azurelunatic | this momentous moment

The moment for that vision I had when I was a teenager is well passed.

When I was a teenager, barely getting into the first hints of self-hypnosis and altered states of consciousness, I had a vision.

I was wearing what I knew to be one of my favorite shirts -- a tightly-fitting ribbed shirt striped horizontally in Autumn colors, browns and (yellows?) and whites and oranges. I was standing by the cabin by the birch trees, holding a baby. A tall, red-haired man was standing next to me, and it was our child, and we loved each other and the baby fiercely.

... That was my first sight of

digitalambience, perhaps ten years before I met him.

The time for that moment has passed. It, now, will never happen.

I held to that dream as something that would yet be for years. I don't, now. It won't. ...I don't think I'll miss it.