Still Bitchy

[azurelunatic]

Bitchy Witchy Week is due at any moment. I don't know when it's going to hit, but it had damn better hit soon. I've been shattering, falling apart, on the verge of tears or screaming these past several days.

What's wrong with me?

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[iroshi.livejournal.com]

Apparently Someone has decided to answer your question, because She's requiring that I type the following:

Combination of four things:
1) hormones (or at least, I assume that's what you're referring to with the "Bitchy Witchy Week is due")
2) stress from dealing with Satanist stalkers
3) Workings to deal with the aforementioned (capital W intentional)
4) the aforementioned are doing their own Workings against you; I think they're pissed about the restraining order

I suspect 1 and 2 have combined to make you not realize that you were currently up against #4. Check your shielding, especially that around the apartment. Check for remaining attachments with any items Sabrina may have left inside the shielding.



Okay, I had a little leeway with the wording. I personally have absolutely no idea on any of the above, but it's what I got told to tell you. :)

[azurelunatic]

Hormones, check.

Stress from dealing with Satanist stalkers, psycho relatives, off-the-handle beginning Practitioners with too much bottled-up rage inside, easily upsettable beginning Practitioners having a first-run in with Real Love, check.

Workings to deal with the above, plus a "too much to do not enough sleep no time" slight neglect of personal shielding, check.

#4 I was not aware of. Thank You, and you.

[mojo-iv.livejournal.com]

The best shield of all is a different perspective on the problem.
This person/persons aligned against you sound like sad, pathetic, petty people. Try thinking about them in small, demeaning ways that reduce their significance to you. Most shields only cement the image of the attacker's power in your mind.

--m4 (I'm sorry, I couldn't help myself)

[azurelunatic]

Oh, my shields were pretty much down around my ankles anyway. So I put them back up, since I needed to do that anyway.

For the little Satanist-wannabe's, I have several amusing mental images of them. I think the most effective one is this: them as they actually are.

Amusingly enough, they accomplished little more than a slight augmentation of a bad mood that was already there. The day with Votania's parents and the stress going on with Sabrina dumping Adam had far more to do with it. I was under such tight control already it was about to snap if I got just a little more stress, and I got just a little more stress...

I didn't snap, I just started leaking. If only a little more stress would have made me snap, can you imagine how infinitesimal their combined effect on me must have been?

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[mojo-iv.livejournal.com]

I would prefer to imagine them finding more productive things to do with their time.

Like, uh, a job, or something. :)

--m4

[azurelunatic]

Heh.

I know at least one of them is a college student with a job...

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[mojo-iv.livejournal.com]

I remember when I was in college, and I certainly didn't have the time to be heaping black magic on people, what with all the classes and studying and drug abuse. :)

--m4

Eh...

[azurelunatic]

Oh, that's today's youth... degenerate, and with all sorts of time on their hands, to be making trouble and so forth. In my day...

Heh.

I suppose as a college student w/job myself, I oughtn't to have the time to have black magic heaped upon me...

[mojo-iv.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you're stressed?

--m4

[azurelunatic]

Hmm... ya THINK??