azurelunatic | Furious

So.

Adam and I are officially broken up, right? Riiiight. So how come he and I spent at least an hour and a half making out today? He came within half a centimeter, half a centimeter or less, of losing his virginity.

So tonight he's going out with V*. This would be his evil ex, the one who I don't like at all, at all, at all. Iroshi, this would be... the one. You know who.

He's going to go watch a movie at her house and spend the night.

I am not happy. I am not fucking happy. I'm furious, in fact.

I don't know her. I don't have to know her. I don't need to know her. I don't want to know her. Just overhearing her talk to him, over-feeling the way he gets around her... I don't like it. I don't have any scientific basis for feeling this, so it doesn't count. I would rather see him fuck a hooker from Van Buren than go back with Valerie.

Why? In the words of Han Solo, "I've got a bad feeling about this."

!!

Why, WHY, WHY do I feel this way about her? I don't know her, I don't like her, and I don't know why. I have no problem with sharing him with other women. Just ... Valerie.

I don't know... if he gets it on with her again, he runs the chance of never getting it on with me again. I don't trust her. I don't like her. She gives me a baaaad feeling. I'm sure he knows her better, but... still. She does the same sorts of things to his sanity level that his parents do.

I don't like this.

I don't like this on toast.

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*hugs*
Jeeze....sounds almost like my week.

half centimeter? *bites tounge at the comment he wants to make*

I think your right about the "bad feeling about this"
I wish I could say or do something to help.

Do tell...what's the bad feeling?

I'm trying to collect data from all the remote sensors to put together an accurate picture of what I'm picking up.

...Bad feeling is BAD FEELING.

While I'm not wiccan or pagan(best way to describe me is Deist) I tend to pick up vibs as to whats going on around me and the people involved. Thats why this past week was such hell on me.

But based on what you've said about her, and the feeling I get, him being around her is going to be bad for him. I can't be more specific.......just that she sounds like several women I've know and they were all selfish bitchs that ended up burning me over the long run.

Ah, "some kind of Theist", like Cordelia Naismith Vorkosigan.

...but all, and I say ALL, my perceptive friends are reacting this same way.

That woman is my hero, and I love Lois for having written her.

Cordelia got me through a tough few years right around sixteen. Much more reliable a touchstone than "What Would Miles Do?"

Oh, gods, never ever EVER try to run your life wondering what MILES would do! Geeeeez, talk about a scary life philosophy. I love the little gimp, and I'd marry him in a heartbeat, but I wouldn't *be* him for all the...all the...all the ANYTHING!

Now, his fiance...she's another one I'd be willing to pattern myself after. He went and found himself a girl like Mom, that's for sure. ONLY somebody like his mother could ever have kept up with him.

All the elephants?

Wife, now. http://www.baen.com has snippets of Diplomatic Immunity up.

And oh, by all means, don't bite the tongue.

All I was thinking was..."Jeeze, if he's that close, wrap your legs around him and pull"

Already were.

Wrong angle, though. :)

heheh.....

poor azz :-)

*trys to picture such and angle and then gives up....creative geometry was never a strong suit :-)

Me before, him behind, Sparky out vertical like a towel rod; he would have either had to go lower to get Sparky's tip high enough to go in, or I would have had to rise. Sparky doesn't bend well.

You already know my opinion of this woman, and of Adam getting back together with her, and I don't have to know her. I just Know she is trouble. And you don't need to say, "I don't know why I feel this way," because you DO. It is knowledge not received in a mundane manner, but still, you do know why.

And considering that every magickally-attuned friend you have says that Adam and V getting back together is a Bad Thing with capital letters, you don't have to worry about this being a jealousy issue. I sure as hell have nothing to be jealous over.

Thing is, sometimes for Adam to believe something, there has to be proof for my sweet scientist. He's still struggling with the concept that Votania and I can do things, that we know, and Know things; if he can't see, smell, taste, hear, feel, it, or measure it with a scientific instrument, it might as well not be there...

...except for that cascade.

Hell.

He does it himself. He turns on the empathy. He attunes himself, sometimes, with the things his undermind is saying to him, the things that his human perceptions are telling him... but around her, those perceptions are not reliable.

I'm afraid for his soul, basically.

It's been forseen that he has enormous potential -- not even forseen. Seen. With eyes, and other senses. Votania sees it. Sabrina sees it. All of his ex-girlfriends who have been witches (and he's drawn to us, somehow!) have seen it. It's also been seen that he's got the potential to go down a very dark path. There's much pain and anger from certain things still locked inside him; I don't even know what most of these things are. If all of that is released, especially by someone who doesn't know what she does, only that it'll provoke a reaction...

...Eeep, in other words.

The louder I scream at him, the more he'll turn to her.

What dare I say??

I am not certain about what I am about to say, but it is what I feel I'm being told to say. I can't do the things I would normally do to check it right now, because I'm at work. I'll double-check with my PTB this evening and verify this info...but for what it's worth, this is what came up when I was reading just now...

There is going to come a time, fairly soon, when direct action is going to have to be taken against this woman in defense of Adam. Non-mundane action. You know what I mean.

I am not fond of combative magics. I tend to try to talk people *out* of using them. I can count on one hand the number of times I've agreed with their use against corporeal beings. This is one of them. Not yet, but it's coming.

...combative...

Oh my.

I think I can count the times I've used that ... well...

...well, with the strays we took in, more often than I'd like to ...

...but yes.

Wacky stuff...but sometimes, playing with the ex is fun (I refer to the hour and a half of making out, here). Half a centimeter, eh? Hmmm...if I was that close to my 'goal', I doubt I'd manage to stop myself. Dunno whether to applaud or cluck my tonngue...

We're ... having an odd relationship. We were friends with privelages... now we're ... officially not, but practically, very little's changed. He's still moving in, we're still friends, we still hug...

...and the angle was wrong.

I know that feeling...been there. Hell, was there with my ex-fiancee, you can imagine how weird THAT got. As far as angles, well, I grok...

...but I'm resourceful.

*L*

I've been engaged twice... and yes, we did do a few things after breaking up, before moving out... that was BJ, the one I don't speak to now. Yeah, that was weird.

Adam ... it's just part of our relationship with each other now.

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