Historical Lunatic

[azurelunatic]

I have the very vain wish to be remembered historically. Of course I'd like to do something politically, scientifically, or literarily important (in the reverse order), but if that fails...

...it's vain and silly, I know...

...but I want to be one of the primary players in one of the World's Great Romances.

I want, years from now, perfect strangers to read my journals, and instead of saying "Typical," or "What a nutjob," I want them to remark to themselves at the intensity, passion, and beauty of my eventual primary relationship.

I suspect it's one of the sorts of things that most people will grow out of. But it's just that nagging little desire at the back of my head to collect fame for something, and love is something I know I can put everything into...

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[elance.livejournal.com]

I understand the feeling. I have a desperate longing to be remembered for something that I write.

I find it odd that I persist in having this feeling, even though I fear that I may never write anything of significance again.

[azurelunatic]

I have faith that you will write more. You're definitely one of those people who needs peace and harmony to write well. Until you get settled there, you don't have that...