Yes, I've become utterly incoherent. Bear with me. I'm OK, and I'm going to be OK, but this is weird

[azurelunatic]

From a comment, and it bears repeating to the rest of you who've been worried because I've been sounding completely off my rocker:

I'm OK. And I'll be OK. I'm just wondering what shape my mind's going to be in. Not as in intact or splattered, but square, circle, heart, star, triangle... because it's being put through some interesting gymnastics to wrap itself around something it should have realized a long time ago.

I've been through this sort of universe-spin before. It's always something I should have been bright enough to pick up on when I first realized it, or taken a clue, but for whatever reason I didn't notice and I went along on my merry little way doing things according to my outdated view of the universe, so now I have several years of mental re-filing to do, and incoherent blibbering and a great deal of uncertainty as to what I'm going to do with the new universe-view.

This has happened several times recently. I suspect that quite a few of my ancient (and erroneous) merry little assumptions are going to be challenged, so you may see quite a bit of me sounding like this. Maybe I'll even get used to it.

It's not a particularly scary mental state for me to be in, as much as I may seem utterly unhinged to the outsider. It's not so much unhinged, it's just that the hinges have been moved and I'm just now realizing it...

Comments

[sraun]

You might prefer the way my brain deals with universe changing events. My subconscious is much quicker than my conscious mind - so, I frequently have this "What?" ... "Oh" reaction. Between the two, my subconscious politely informs me that yes, we did know all about this, and we have dealt with it already, thank you.

Works very nicely as long as it doesn't involve interacting with other people. Interacting issues require a clue-by-four - I have a number of people who are on standing orders to apply one as needed.

[azurelunatic]

That sounds very nice. Where do I download configuration files for that?

[sraun]

The down side? You get to be really oblivious for a long time!

Sorry, I don't know where the config files are stored. :-(

[azurelunatic]

Oh, dear. I don't think I'd like that, then.

[teenagewitch.livejournal.com]

If you need to talk to me, I am available and would be more than happy to call you if you needed it. I hope you feel better. BTW that whole craziness must be in the air because I am seriously having nervous breakdown central here. Loves and hugs!!

[azurelunatic]

Thanks for the thought! I've got argh-people covered, and my priestess-confessor is smacking me over the head as applicable. I'm feeling saner than ever, which is sort of scary because it's only when I realize how out of touch with reality my head was making itself that I run around screeching like a madwoman.