azurelunatic | Lonely tonight

If I could afford to stay up all night tonight I would. I'm feeling lonely, oppressed, not entirely at home with who I am or what I'm doing.

marxdarx brought over some Ranma 1/2 tonight, so everybody watched that. That was cool. Very cool. Amusing. Grandpa gets beaten up a lot.

I learned something: two self-loathing gothboys do not instant best friends make, especially when both of them are exceptionally shy and apt to be seen by the rest of the world as arrogant and irritable. Pity, because if they did get to know each other, they would have so much in common, but perhaps they have too much in common to be near each other. The world might explode. ...Or implode, I always have forgotten which.

I just don't feel connected. There's the guy who things happened with the other day ... connection feels weird. Anything with anyone other than Darkside feels weird, in the end. I'm too attuned to his energies to feel quite right with anyone else. I suppose if I pulled the Final Fantasy (movie) solution, and found the right polyamourous combination to equal his energy, that might work...

...Attuned. It's all about how I'm tuned. I can retune myself at will. So why don't I?