Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-07 02:06 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-07 02:06 pm
To Adam:
I am terrified when you sleep with V.
When you sleep with V without condoms, I am scared for my own health, because I do not know her well enough to know whether I should accept her word as good. If I allow myself to accept as automatically good the word of a friend of a friend, even a good friend of a friend, without feeling for myself that this person is trustworthy, I screw myself over majorly. Her security certificate is not rejected, but not accepted. The not knowing whether sleeping with you puts me at a health risk is damaging to me. I wish you would use condoms. I wish that I had asked that we be body-fluid monogamous with each other before this situation had come up.
I'm mad that you're sleeping with her, and dreadfully hurt. When you know how I feel and keep sleeping with her, this makes me feel as though nothing I say, think, or feel means anything to you. I feel that the reasons I have for being upset are a separate issue entirely.
...Talking this out sometime before anything more happens would be a Really Good Thing.
When you sleep with V without condoms, I am scared for my own health, because I do not know her well enough to know whether I should accept her word as good. If I allow myself to accept as automatically good the word of a friend of a friend, even a good friend of a friend, without feeling for myself that this person is trustworthy, I screw myself over majorly. Her security certificate is not rejected, but not accepted. The not knowing whether sleeping with you puts me at a health risk is damaging to me. I wish you would use condoms. I wish that I had asked that we be body-fluid monogamous with each other before this situation had come up.
I'm mad that you're sleeping with her, and dreadfully hurt. When you know how I feel and keep sleeping with her, this makes me feel as though nothing I say, think, or feel means anything to you. I feel that the reasons I have for being upset are a separate issue entirely.
...Talking this out sometime before anything more happens would be a Really Good Thing.
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*Hugs*
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