feeling sorry for myself

[azurelunatic]

It is to be hoped that one of these days I'll find myself back down to 190 like I was in high school. That was skinny in high school -- I didn't have much weight to lose beyond that. I'm tall for a girl and I've got muscle and I don't break if you drop me.

...I just feel like I should be more motivated to be losing weight, if I really want to catch Darkside's attention.

I'm sure it'll be just like my personalities. No perceptible change for the longest of times, and then suddenly, there I was, singular again, with a healthy and whole personality.

Maybe, like Mark, I'm hiding, repressing something behind this barrier of flesh.So... what?

Comments

[iroshi.livejournal.com]

Oddly enough, I just got incentive last night to lose some weight. I *warned* Chris about saying stuff like that...he asked me, "Why does your belly look so much better naked than with underwear or clothes on? When you have underwear on, it looks huge, but when you're naked, it looks perfect."

Ooooookay, time to get with those crunches I've been delaying starting. ^_^

[wiredferret.livejournal.com]

Pah! Tummy pudge does not make you unloveable. Lose weight, if you want to, for you, not him.

[azurelunatic]

Unloveable, no. Doesn't change my personality a bit. Physically... it's an issue. With me, and with him.

I'm not really into trying to change people's programming. Easier to change myself. I know better than to shove myself into something I at heart don't want to do. Problem is making myself want to.

[xatharine.livejournal.com]

I still lie about being 180 on my driver's license. Lately, I've begun to think that unless I find religion (the breatharian type) or some sports fetish, I'm never going to see 180 again. Which is okay. My new goal is entirely fashion related. I want to be able to fit into size 14 pants again.

[azurelunatic]

Fashion related, that's good. I keep reminding myself of that too. Most of the cool clothes are out of my size range.

On a lighter note, at least I've got the cleavage in return! Looks awesome with Ren garb.