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azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-25 02:35 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-03-25 02:35 am
Dear Adam:
I should have thought before I acted. What I perceived as the minor discourtesy of telling you what was going on after rather than before turned into a disaster, and there is no way of making that right.
We never did lay out the rules for how we were to handle sexual contact with other people when the other was present in the same house at the time. All I remember having specifically discussed with you pertaining to the situation was that you preferred not to watch me playing tonsil hockey with another man.
There is no way to undo what's been done. I wish I could. I wish I had never inflicted this pain upon you. We can only continue from here.
If you do not wish to continue our relationship, I could understand that, and if that is the choice you make, I wish you the best. I treasure and value our friendship, and have no wish to see it end, but if that is how it must be, then let it be so.
I would prefer to try to continue our relationship, however. This must never happen again, and I am prepared to accede to your wishes in how to make that possible. If we are to continue, the safest way is to agree upon some guidelines for each of our behavior. We discussed my wishes for your behavior the last time we upset each other. This time, I would appreciate knowing where the boundaries lie so that I do not tap-dance on the land mines in your psyche. Triggering your anger terrifies me and I have no wish to do it ever again.
No matter if our relationship continues or not, my fling with the other young man in question is over until further notice, if not forever. It is a fling; he and I are not long-term compatible, and he and I both know it. I had thought that you and I might be more so. I still hope we might be.
I'm sorry.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
We never did lay out the rules for how we were to handle sexual contact with other people when the other was present in the same house at the time. All I remember having specifically discussed with you pertaining to the situation was that you preferred not to watch me playing tonsil hockey with another man.
There is no way to undo what's been done. I wish I could. I wish I had never inflicted this pain upon you. We can only continue from here.
If you do not wish to continue our relationship, I could understand that, and if that is the choice you make, I wish you the best. I treasure and value our friendship, and have no wish to see it end, but if that is how it must be, then let it be so.
I would prefer to try to continue our relationship, however. This must never happen again, and I am prepared to accede to your wishes in how to make that possible. If we are to continue, the safest way is to agree upon some guidelines for each of our behavior. We discussed my wishes for your behavior the last time we upset each other. This time, I would appreciate knowing where the boundaries lie so that I do not tap-dance on the land mines in your psyche. Triggering your anger terrifies me and I have no wish to do it ever again.
No matter if our relationship continues or not, my fling with the other young man in question is over until further notice, if not forever. It is a fling; he and I are not long-term compatible, and he and I both know it. I had thought that you and I might be more so. I still hope we might be.
I'm sorry.
I love you.
I'm sorry.