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azurelunatic) wrote2002-04-28 01:52 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-04-28 01:52 pm
Virginity: Monistic and Dualistic
Where is the line drawn for losing virginity?
Some people, it's having sex, the standard penis + vagina routine. Other people, it's oral sex. Or 69. Others-- sharing orgasms.
"But I have shared a thousand times but am a virgin still..."
Some people define it as in the mind. The body is ephemeral. The spirit is immortal.
Religions with a dualistic view hold that the physical world and the spiritual world are separate. Monists hold that they are one and the same. Wicca is a traditionally monistic faith; Christianity, dualistic.
I'm not entirely sure where to place myself. My father was liberal with conservative values; my mother, conservative, with liberal values. It's a matter of choosing camera angles. Shall I view everything holistically, or micromanage it apart into layers that are simpler to deal with?
In the dualistic tradition of things, it does not matter what the physical body does as long as the mind is kept pure. The spirit must prevail over the physical urges; likewise, if the body is shared with others but the spirit is not, the important part is maintained. The idea is not to let the higher self give in to the lower, base part of oneself.
Monistically, the body and spirit are one whole complete system, where both parts must function as a whole. There must be no artificial divide put between body and spirit. Offenses to the body are offenses directly upon the spirit; spiritual failings show up directly in the body. Body and mind are balanced as one.
I think I date my mental loss of virginity to the first time I had a dream where I had sex. Before, I had experienced dreams where there was almost sex, but that dream about sex was a key turning point for me. My mind woke up to potential adulthood.
My physical loss of virginity? I think I masturbate less frequently now, in this past year, than ever before. I may have been ten when it became a serious hobby. It may have been younger.
Emotionally, the first time I had sex was an event-marker for me. I felt it shouldn't have been so anticlimactic. Sure, we had sex. It didn't feel as much of a milestone as it should have been. I walked around the fountain for what felt like hours, walking and trying to sort myself out in the spring wind. My first sexual-type intimacy with Shawn, when I gave him an orgasm, that was likely the true loss of my virginity. I got the emotional and physical aftereffects of Really Good Sex, with some hyperactivity thrown in to boot. NRE makes me hyper as hell.
I have yet to reach my spiritual-energetic virginity marker... or have I? My first time combining energies with... holy.
Okay. This entry is stopping right here. This needs a new entry.
Some people, it's having sex, the standard penis + vagina routine. Other people, it's oral sex. Or 69. Others-- sharing orgasms.
"But I have shared a thousand times but am a virgin still..."
Some people define it as in the mind. The body is ephemeral. The spirit is immortal.
Religions with a dualistic view hold that the physical world and the spiritual world are separate. Monists hold that they are one and the same. Wicca is a traditionally monistic faith; Christianity, dualistic.
I'm not entirely sure where to place myself. My father was liberal with conservative values; my mother, conservative, with liberal values. It's a matter of choosing camera angles. Shall I view everything holistically, or micromanage it apart into layers that are simpler to deal with?
In the dualistic tradition of things, it does not matter what the physical body does as long as the mind is kept pure. The spirit must prevail over the physical urges; likewise, if the body is shared with others but the spirit is not, the important part is maintained. The idea is not to let the higher self give in to the lower, base part of oneself.
Monistically, the body and spirit are one whole complete system, where both parts must function as a whole. There must be no artificial divide put between body and spirit. Offenses to the body are offenses directly upon the spirit; spiritual failings show up directly in the body. Body and mind are balanced as one.
I think I date my mental loss of virginity to the first time I had a dream where I had sex. Before, I had experienced dreams where there was almost sex, but that dream about sex was a key turning point for me. My mind woke up to potential adulthood.
My physical loss of virginity? I think I masturbate less frequently now, in this past year, than ever before. I may have been ten when it became a serious hobby. It may have been younger.
Emotionally, the first time I had sex was an event-marker for me. I felt it shouldn't have been so anticlimactic. Sure, we had sex. It didn't feel as much of a milestone as it should have been. I walked around the fountain for what felt like hours, walking and trying to sort myself out in the spring wind. My first sexual-type intimacy with Shawn, when I gave him an orgasm, that was likely the true loss of my virginity. I got the emotional and physical aftereffects of Really Good Sex, with some hyperactivity thrown in to boot. NRE makes me hyper as hell.
I have yet to reach my spiritual-energetic virginity marker... or have I? My first time combining energies with... holy.
Okay. This entry is stopping right here. This needs a new entry.