Freakout Factor

[azurelunatic]

I was multiple from approximately 1994 to 2001. That last year was one of my toughest and strangest. We were finally coming together to work as a team.

I started letting new potential friends know, pretty much upfront, all the weird things about me that might freak the hell out of them: witch, bisexual, multipersonalitied. (Didn't quite self-identify as poly, then.) The idea was to keep the people who didn't flip out and not bother to get to know the people who totally freaked on me.

I knew I'd found a friend to keep for life when Mona actually came out around Darkside, and then communicated with him for a good hour. (She didn't speak.)

We eventually did spontaneously integrate.

I do miss having the companionship in my mind. If left alone long enough, I'd add new personalities to my mind, refine old ones. The Azz/Shanna/Mona/'Ni conglomerate is a good working personality -- how about discovering a few more?

That's one of the things I'm spooked about in the reduction of household. Withous someone around to help keep a watch on my mind, I know I'll mutate.

Comments

[wiredferret.livejournal.com]

Hrm. Is it mutation or growth? You are responsible for your own head, whether or not there are external observers.

[azurelunatic]

If left lonely, I find someone to talk to. This could be external or internal. Since my mind went singular, my personality's shifted from introvert to extrovert.

Whether it's growth or insanity depends on many factors.

...and eek. Nice deadline. This is going to make some plans interesting.