I'll wear a smile and walk in the sun

[azurelunatic]

I'm not sure how long it's been going on, but I've been having those not-entirely-happily-single pangs at the sight and thought of particular instances of happy couples being all happily-coupled. (Not to discriminate in my angst -- I'm sure triads and upwards as far as poly groups go would trigger it too, under the right circumstances.)

Relationship stuff is enough of a general issue, though, that I am immensely resistant to the idea of actually getting into one for quite some time in the future. I know that diving in headfirst would get me in so much of the bad kind of trouble. I need more time than this to straighten everything out in my own head. Some of it's going to be psych-time, which means sitting down in self-hypnosis mode and figuring out what the hell is going on and figuring out what the hell I have to do in order to fix it. Some of it is going to be just plain time.

I'm channeling all the angst into a playlist rather than anything more self-destructive. I don't go for emo music -- too depressing -- so even the most miserable items on the playlist are going to have some merit. Some of them are actually cheerful, imagine that.

Name Artist Composer Album Crying In The Rain a-ha East of the Sun West of the Moon River Lies Seanan McGuire and Friends Pretty Little Dead Girl Tears of Pearls Savage Garden Savage Garden Will Anything Happen? Blondie Parallel Lines Final Fantasy 3 Terra in Black OC ReMix Ailsean Nobuo Uematsu http://www.ocremix.org Don't Let It Show The Alan Parsons Project The Definitive Collection (1 of 2) You Oughta Know Alanis Morissette Jagged Little Pill Hallelujah Allison Crowe Out in the Streets Blondie No Exit Fade Away and Radiate Blondie Parallel Lines Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps Cake Apologies Collaborateur I Can't Stand the Rain The Commitments The Best Of Rain Concrete Blonde Mexican Moon Angels Of The Silences Counting Crows Recovering The Satellites More Than This The Cure The X-Files: The Album Title of the Song Da Vinci's Notebook The Life and Times of Mike Fanning Driving With the Brakes On Del Amitri Twisted Empty Chairs Don McLean American Pie

Gentle Hum Finn Brothers Everyone Is Here Walking After You Foo Fighters The X-Files: The Album Only Happy When It Rains Garbage Garbage Mizerable Gackt THE SIXTH DAY~SINGLE COLLECTION~ The World Is Not Enough Garbage The World Is Not Enough Galileo Indigo Girls Retrospective Why Can't I Fall in Love Ivan Neville Pump Up the Volume Diamonds & Rust Joan Baez Joan Baez Diamonds & Rust I Talk to the Wind King Crimson In the Court of the Crimson King: An Observation by King Crimson Yuutsu Na Seven Days Kinya Kotani History P-20 All My Little Words The Magnetic Fields 69 Love Songs Vol. 1 Head Like a Hole Nine Inch Nails Pretty Hate Machine (Or a Heart Attack) Old 97's Stimulus > Response Goodbye to Romance Ozzy Osbourne Blizzard of Ozz Boulevard of Broken Songs Party Ben Never Feel Good Party Ben The Party Ben Experience Not A Virgin Poe Haunted King of Pain The Police Synchronicity Leaving New York R.E.M. Around the Sun Everybody Hurts R.E.M. Automatic for the People

Wolves, Lower R.E.M. Dead Letter Office The One I Love R.E.M. Document So. Central Rain (I'm Sorry) R.E.M. Eponymous Turn You Inside-Out R.E.M. Green Tongue R.E.M. Monster Near Wild Heaven R.E.M. Out of Time I'll Take the Rain R.E.M. Reveal Drowning in Your Tears The Rembrandts L.P. Never Say Never Romeo Void Rock of the 80's, Volume 2 Broken Hearts of Fire Seanan McGuire Seanan McGuire I Am (The Doppelganger's Song) Seanan McGuire and Friends Pretty Little Dead Girl For Emily Simon & Garfunkel Tainted Love Soft Cell Rock of the 80's, Volume 2 Hopeless Bleak Dispair They Might Be Giants They Might Be Giants Mink Car Shoehorn With Teeth They Might Be Giants Then: The Earlier Years (disc 2) Something's Always Wrong Toad the Wet Sprocket Dulcinea Spark Tori Amos From the Choirgirl Hotel

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[azurelunatic]

The playlist is called "Wallowing in Angst".