Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2002-05-15 01:20 pm
azurelunatic) wrote2002-05-15 01:20 pm
sweet/sad
He loves me just enough to keep me loving him. Not less. When I'm bummed out about something, even if it was something he said to me, especially if it was something he said to me, he'll hit me on the head to make me smile and feel better.
It hurt him when I turned away from him and wouldn't look at the amusing thing he'd found online. I just wasn't ready to get close to him that soon afterwards...
Yes. Hit me over the head to cheer me up. Why? It's a value of pain that doesn't "hurt" ... there's at least a little of the masochist in me. It's physical contact, and physical contact, with Darkside, is an indication that he's okay with you. If he's mad, he won't touch you, won't make eye contact for long, won't angle his head in your direction. He gets rough with friends, like I were one of the guys.
Why am I always one of the guys? I rather like the position. I'd rather sit there and drink Dew until dawn with an all-night D&D session than be taken out somewhere where neither of us is comfortable.
...but then, I'd love to dance with him sometime, sometime other than out in the courtyard when we started out fighting.
Breaking my heart, I know. Do I care?
It hurt him when I turned away from him and wouldn't look at the amusing thing he'd found online. I just wasn't ready to get close to him that soon afterwards...
Yes. Hit me over the head to cheer me up. Why? It's a value of pain that doesn't "hurt" ... there's at least a little of the masochist in me. It's physical contact, and physical contact, with Darkside, is an indication that he's okay with you. If he's mad, he won't touch you, won't make eye contact for long, won't angle his head in your direction. He gets rough with friends, like I were one of the guys.
Why am I always one of the guys? I rather like the position. I'd rather sit there and drink Dew until dawn with an all-night D&D session than be taken out somewhere where neither of us is comfortable.
...but then, I'd love to dance with him sometime, sometime other than out in the courtyard when we started out fighting.
Breaking my heart, I know. Do I care?