Azure Jane Lunatic (Azz) 🌺 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
azurelunatic) wrote2002-05-20 07:35 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-05-20 07:35 am
impotence
I'm not sure if I've really truly really had an orgasm lately.
Yes, I've had pleasure and stuff, thank you dearie if you're reading this, no need to get more explicit than "pleasure".
But an orgasm?
Thing is, I know how one should feel. I've been to that place, where there are things that cease to exist and things you never knew existed. Timeless. That place.
I haven't quite been there lately.
Why?
I haven't been able to let go of my body, to leave off control for long enough to have an honest to gods orgasm.
Yes, I have "gotten off". It's not the same, though. It's certainly the level of connection one has with a partner; there is definitely an element there that would not be present were I completely alone. I do have that. That is very nice.
It's the control. I can't even let go the control alone with myself.
Yes, I've had pleasure and stuff, thank you dearie if you're reading this, no need to get more explicit than "pleasure".
But an orgasm?
Thing is, I know how one should feel. I've been to that place, where there are things that cease to exist and things you never knew existed. Timeless. That place.
I haven't quite been there lately.
Why?
I haven't been able to let go of my body, to leave off control for long enough to have an honest to gods orgasm.
Yes, I have "gotten off". It's not the same, though. It's certainly the level of connection one has with a partner; there is definitely an element there that would not be present were I completely alone. I do have that. That is very nice.
It's the control. I can't even let go the control alone with myself.
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