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azurelunatic) wrote1997-06-01 05:31 pm
azurelunatic) wrote1997-06-01 05:31 pm
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Sunday, June 1, 1997 17:31
Jack wants to go out with Shanna. Shawn promised to come back. I’m going to hold him to the promise; it’s a good thing. No Matter What.
So anyway, recall how Shawn said that I would have no trouble with this former dateoid thing if I just acted like myself—or the self I am most often? Well, I did. I did for the discussion today, too. And that was a problem. Dear gods...I love Shawn. I like JoshC. But JoshC is refusing to touch me (practically, effectively) because I’m Shawn’s. I love this. It’s just so funny. I want JoshC. But JoshC pretty much refuses to seriously mess with someone else’s girlfriend. Where’s a wall to bang my head against? I have to laugh, because otherwise it would be too twisted, and I’d have to cry. I would like to go out with JoshC in order to dull my physical desire for Shawn. However, JoshC is too honorable to go out with the girlfriend of another guy.
Oh gods. In addition to all this, Hannah and Savil may be making a romance out of thin air. I think that would be a good idea.
Narcissa and I had a fight. It was about her violin music and my radio music. We mutually hate the other’s form of music, if you can call it such.
Iguanas! Shawn has one: he got it Friday. Its name is Oscar, and it can’t come to New Mexico with him because iguanas and planes do not mix well. I laugh. Jessica asked me if I wanted to iguana-sit. I think I’d like to, if only for the good rep with Shawn. He hasn’t called me yet; hasn’t called Erin yet either. He may -- I need, really need, to check my e-mail. Oh, good little Stardust is helping me type. GL birdie. She’s not a fai.
Gods, I really messed this up with Shawn good, didn’t I?
Shawn forgot his Anguished English, he was so intent on figuring out a way to get Oscar on the plane with him.
JoshC is leaving on June 8th for a month or thereabouts. Aww! He’s not going to SFAC. That’s really too bad. I think I like him. Hey, is he going to be hanging around Suzuki Institute? Maybe? While I’m watching the table? That might be nice, someone to rub my shoulders while I deal with the GLFs there? Could be very interesting--maybe too interesting for the LF’s watching us, however. I really need a blankbook for the summer. Silly Joani already has the one she made herself, the feather one. I really need to get my act together for the summer. Silly Joani.
Jack wants to go out with Shanna. Shawn promised to come back. I’m going to hold him to the promise; it’s a good thing. No Matter What.
So anyway, recall how Shawn said that I would have no trouble with this former dateoid thing if I just acted like myself—or the self I am most often? Well, I did. I did for the discussion today, too. And that was a problem. Dear gods...I love Shawn. I like JoshC. But JoshC is refusing to touch me (practically, effectively) because I’m Shawn’s. I love this. It’s just so funny. I want JoshC. But JoshC pretty much refuses to seriously mess with someone else’s girlfriend. Where’s a wall to bang my head against? I have to laugh, because otherwise it would be too twisted, and I’d have to cry. I would like to go out with JoshC in order to dull my physical desire for Shawn. However, JoshC is too honorable to go out with the girlfriend of another guy.
Oh gods. In addition to all this, Hannah and Savil may be making a romance out of thin air. I think that would be a good idea.
Narcissa and I had a fight. It was about her violin music and my radio music. We mutually hate the other’s form of music, if you can call it such.
Iguanas! Shawn has one: he got it Friday. Its name is Oscar, and it can’t come to New Mexico with him because iguanas and planes do not mix well. I laugh. Jessica asked me if I wanted to iguana-sit. I think I’d like to, if only for the good rep with Shawn. He hasn’t called me yet; hasn’t called Erin yet either. He may -- I need, really need, to check my e-mail. Oh, good little Stardust is helping me type. GL birdie. She’s not a fai.
Gods, I really messed this up with Shawn good, didn’t I?
Shawn forgot his Anguished English, he was so intent on figuring out a way to get Oscar on the plane with him.
JoshC is leaving on June 8th for a month or thereabouts. Aww! He’s not going to SFAC. That’s really too bad. I think I like him. Hey, is he going to be hanging around Suzuki Institute? Maybe? While I’m watching the table? That might be nice, someone to rub my shoulders while I deal with the GLFs there? Could be very interesting--maybe too interesting for the LF’s watching us, however. I really need a blankbook for the summer. Silly Joani already has the one she made herself, the feather one. I really need to get my act together for the summer. Silly Joani.
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Shawn's stepdad was also named Jack.
Stardust was a little silver sebright hen.