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azurelunatic) wrote2013-08-18 03:41 am
azurelunatic) wrote2013-08-18 03:41 am
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In which one of my little notebooks and I watch Pacific Rim together!
I typed this up after the movie and then left it in Notepad until I had brain again.
02:26 2013-08-10
From the notepad:
Paranoia: watch (the trailer seems like the sort of plotty fucked-up action thriller that I'd be all over, plus dude looks enough like new!Kirk that my mind will happily go to AU places)
Wait FORD?? <- I'd missed that Harrison Ford (like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic) was the old dude in Ender's Game, because I'm used to him with a very different hair color, and his current hair color is a sort of "I'm in denial about my grey hair" old man blond, not actually a legit grey. But then I saw his chin and recognized him.
I'm going to want to watch The Grandmaster as well, because it also, wheeee, oh my god.
The Catching Fire trailer was also in there somewhere, and while I didn't take notes, it was gorgeous; I didn't have the same urgency because I've read the book and baaaasically this is one of the ones that I'm going to have to be braced for above and beyond the actual text of the movie, because I have old trauma that the movie plugs right the hell into. That's not going to stop me from seeing it, but it does mean that I'm going to have to be careful when seeing it, and not do it any time that I can't afford to utterly lose my shit (internally). (This is post-therapy.)
and now--
RIM
***
oops ... there goes SF (this is a theme: San Francisco is a large enough city that it gets the crap beat out of it in movies on a regular basis. It's surreal to watch the city you're in get destroyed onscreen.)
shit. (nice drift there)
owww
pilots
action figures
toxic blood?
arg slurs :(
*facepalm* (I was prepared for this going in, and it's not a word that either applies to me nor has been used against me, so it's not an emotional blow to me to encounter it, but since it's still in active use as a slur despite some people reclaiming it, it's not appropriate as a jaeger name.)
hooooome AK
It turns out that I get kind of emotional at seeing my homeland on the big screen, even when it's just letters painted on a bunker.
Slashy
oops brothers
How much do I enjoy horseplay between people, especially men, who are physically comfortable with each other? A LOT.
nice suits
The black undersuits for the drift are really neat; it makes me want to touch them and rub my face on the tech.
driftttttttt
spine nifty
This feels like fully realized tech. It is gadget porn. I am all about the gadget porn.
nice grime.
battle worn
The outer layer of the suit is all dinged up; this is clearly not new. This is clearly -- yeah, that post I saw somewhere in passing about the visual language of the movie, even though I was trying to stay unspoiled, I saw that much of it, and I seeeee what they meant. This is a universe that's been lived in and beaten up and touched. A lot.
so white dudes
who's the guy who ?
There's a guy in there who looks like JGL.
rosary
all the [something]
HOME
HOME
HOME
HOME
I'm clearly having a lot of Alaska feels.
nobody mentioned Alaska
Or, at least, nobody mentioned Alaska specifically outside of spoilerzone. I mean, I know the name of the movie is Pacific Rim? But there's a difference between "the events of this movie affect a lot of places including your home state" and "the beginning of the main part of this movie is located in your home state even though absolutely no part of it appears to have required a location shoot there" (speaking of which, I'm so stoked for Crossover, you have no idea)
Pentecost
(now *there's* a name)
hahaha snark
banter
I am such a fucking sucker for banter, omg.
driftttttttt
(this is becoming a theme)
Pentecost, what a name.
(yep)
brain damage
Gulf
Anchorage
(feeeeels)
mechanical I like it
all the lights
Yes, it entirely makes sense to have floodlights mounted on the various parts of the jaeger, because the pilots need to see where it's going, don't they? And it helps other people see where exactly that big damn limb is going to be.
ooo water on the lens
Yes, this is a very fucking tangible universe. Even though I suspect this all of being CGI. Put your hand inside the puppet head. Touch the puppets.
shitboat.
Kaijuuuuuuuuuu
boat
yikes glowy
I have a phobia of unexpected lights in the darkness, so the kaiju are basically nightmare fuel for me, above and beyond their already-strong nightmare fuel potential.
ooo eyes
(lots of them)
bilateral symmetry
(all they got me was this lousy F-shirt)
rock
hardp
boat
that poor boat, stuck between a kaiju and a jaeger.
Punch monster
aaa Zappppy
(electricity phobia, hello)
nerves?
wtf? zap?
home
shit 2nd
oh
no
first
(It wasn't dead yet. oops.)
Punch monster?
owowow
ow ow ow
gold?
what?
what missing
dude no
aaaa no
home?
can he whole thing
kill himself
aaa
brother
(Can he run the whole thing himself? He'll die trying.)
(at this point I gave up trying to use both sides of the paper, because it just wasn't working for me.)
yeh heblowup
shit but you don't survive
partner
cannot be good
(walking the beach with the metal detector; this sort of peaceful scene is a recipe for trouble, and I expect someone to die horribly any minute)
oh my very large
mittens on strings
(this is the sort of detail that can get missed about cold climates when they're depicted by people who aren't from cold climates)
how survive?
expected him to die
yikes
how learn?
all men world leader
oh, one [woman] from Peru
never, lol
(the construction sign has had the projected completion date crossed out and "never" spraypainted in.)
top of the wall ow
(bad news: three workers on the top of the wall were killed. good news: three new job openings. Top of the wall.)
construction for dude?
(my relatively mild faceblindness means that when an unfamiliar actor changes costume and makeup, I have to guess at whether it's the same person until the movie tells me. One of the relatively recent Sherlock Holmes movies was made a lot more entertaining because Mary and The Woman looked insufficiently different ((white women of the same build, delicate features, dark hair, and heavily costumed)) that I was convinced that they were the same person. Since they never spoke nor were even in the same frame, this persisted until the credits.)
straps?
(Is he clamping himself onto the metal structure for safety lest he fall?)
ground not secure
(no, this is not a clamp that could physically hold him, it is a grounding clamp. This job is taking physical risks that OSHA would scream about, but no1curr because monsters. The internet tells me that he must therefore be arc welding, and now I know approximately 300x more about welding than I did a little bit ago, which is to say that I really never want to get near it because it's hot, glowy, dangerous, and in the case of arc welding, electric.)
Poor opera house
Aussie assholes
(we meet the son.)
heli for dude
(I bet the helicopter is Pentecost coming to retrieve the blond guy.)
yep
very sharp
(Pentecost, damn he's stylin'. This is in sharp contrast to the generally shitty work environment, which is all dirty and battered, and the establishing shot of the crowd had what looked like microwaves in it, which says things to me about the culture of the job site: specifically, that they do not feed their workers properly as it looks like they're expected to take care of their own lunches despite there being enough of them that there really by rights ought to be a chow truck or something.)
some office
sweater holes nice
(see above; white dude's sweater has holes in it, which I appreciated on account of the welding and general poor condition of all the things.)
head :( ow :(
died :( ow :(
(Telepathy with your dying brother? NOT A PLEASANT EXPERIENCE.)
well when you put it that way
(do you want to go back in a jaeger and risk someone else dying in your head, or die on the wall? also, winter is coming.)
shatterdome?
(this name is never adequately explained; maybe the novelization will do better)
the fux tanks?
(What are these glowing tanks with biological-looking things in them?)
wish I could read
(I cannot read Chinese or Japanese, to my eternal chagrin. This is a thing you have to study, and I'm not very good at studying.)
There is someone striding along, wearing a long coat and carrying a really nice umbrella. I interpret the stride as an effeminate man's, and am looking forward to meeting him.
brolly dude is lady
(not an effeminate man, a decisive woman, and I like her straight off.)
(and I want the full genderflipped AU where there's Mr. Mori and then HELLA LADIES ALL THE LADIES MOTHERS SISTERS DAUGHTERS FRIENDS LOVERS LADIES LADIES LADIES AND MR. MORI WITH HIS SWASH AND ALSO HIS BUCKLE)
blue hair
(I like blue hair)
lol language
(white dude speaks Japanese, to blue-haired lady's chagrin at having spoken about him to Pentecost in front of him)
hee
flirt flirt
(I ship them. hard. instantly. Which is maybe not so typical for me and m/f couples? idk.)
newt? lol
(hello geekboy with tank full of biological-looking things, and glasses. there is a dude at work with those glasses. Newt here has all the charm and personal grace of Seymour from Little Shop of Horrors. I do not like Seymour. I like Newt, but not in a pants-feeling ways like I often enjoy geekboys.)
you will
([I have no idea what my parenthetical statement was, but there's a d in the middle of the word, and it ends with t. Understatement? maybe?])
munitions yay
(warning sign about live munitions)
polished floor
(the floor of the jaeger section of the shatterdome is the sort of slick polished surface that speaks of so much ground-in dirt, so much traffic, so much cleaning that what was originally concrete looks like seamless black stone.)
no traffic
(white boy does not understand the rules of the road, and nearly gets run over by one of the countless little vehicles; the driver makes the sort of rude gesture that you make at the idiot that you nearly killed)
mmm Russia that's pretty
(I have a thing for strongly built women with dark hair and dark lipstick, even if they're bleached platinum. Put her together with her counterpart, and mmmmm yeah. Those people are pretty.)
Aussie assholes hi here
(the original impression was of Junior, who made a very strong and bad impression.)
always w/ plans
lol radioactive
(this will prove later to be a plot point)
oh augh lol guts
(Newt is being gross and gesturing with a handful of kaiju guts.)
lol rules
(Newt's officemate the physically disabled and possibly also non-neurotypical mathematician has rules about where Newt may and may not sling his handfuls of greasy grimy kaiju guts. Of course.)
numbers
lol partners
(they are the best odd couple)
not really nt there
(this applies to both the scientists, but Newt is more my type of non-neurotypical than his officemate. And by "my type", I mean, Newt is sort of me.)
ugh guts
(eww)
clooooones?
ewwwww
mindmeld w/
eww drift
ewww
but who
newt
lolllllll
newt/hermann
(they're an odd couple. I ship it.)
love laptop
(blue-haired lady hugs what looks like a macbook of the future)
lol alloys fffff
(you don't know how metal works. alloys are good things when they're the right material for the job. stronger. different properties. pure metal is only a good thing when it's the right material for the job. if it's not, you're fucking yourself over. let's hope it's the right material for the job. science rant over, back to our regularly scheduled alien lizard apocalypse.)
friends
simulator
(blue-haired lady, aww yiss badass, and I know she's going to be there because internets)
lol wrong man yay
(????)
female gaze
(blue-haired lady appreciates shirtless white dude, gets caught looking, slams her door, continues the appreciative glance through peephole. LADIES.)
revenge?
(it's personal, with the kaiju and her.)
well, match
new sweater
(the one he fucked up welding has probably been quietly taken away, washed, and handed off to someone who needs it more than he does)
jerk
yay dad
(I have sussed out that blue-haired lady is treating Pentecost like a father-figure; he becomes "daddy" in my shorthand)
(either that or I am talking about Aussie Dad, who is awesome)
lol kick
oh, clipboard?
(blue-haired lady's aluminum rectangle might not be a laptop after all; we never do see the front of it that I can tell)
tablet?
pleeeeeeease daddy
(this is definitely Pentecost; this interaction is definitely one between parent/child, not just superior and minion)
physical lol
heee
fancy
yay
(SUCH A SUCKER for physical compatibility)
whaaaaaaaaaa
awww
but daddy
(blue-haired lady does not get to play with the jaegers)
oops
room
(blue-haired lady, trying to open the wrong door)
RESPECT
bleeding?
cancer?
oh shit
meds
(in which the penny drops: that wasn't altoids that Pentecost was popping back in Anchorage, those are meds.)
not tats, scars
(the beautiful lines on the one side of white boy's body are not body art, they are scars from his previous jaeger pilot experience. that shit *fucks you up*.)
oh shit dude
(Newt is gonna drift)
bellows?
(his equipment is hilariously cobbled together)
ohgod
shit
dear god
be cool hon
dressed up
shoe?
bowties are cool
(clearly I think dude here looks like the kids' Doctor)
(my Doctor is Eleven, therefore Twelve is the kids' Doctor)
different side
(it would make sense that he swaps sides because brother, also burnout)
intimacy
nervous
ooooooowat
blood
broken
tics fidget
(I noticed Aussie Dad playing with his ring, and that's the sort of thing where there's often a story. Meaningful piece of jewelry, and you touch it when nervous and draw strength from whatever it symbolizes to you.)
oh newt
(what's more important than watching your protege on her first drift? finding out that the fucking asshole stupid scientist has done mad science on himself and drifted with part of a kaiju brain.)
jacked up
(newt is not okay)
orders
shut up keep talking
(you, shut up. you, keep talking. yes banter yes.)
colonists not communists
(me and my audio funtimes)
dinosaurs lol
aaaaaaaaaa
terraformed
05:10 2013-08-10
(we pause here because apparently typing these up is a substantial time investment and cannot be accomplished in just one evening. Er, morning. 03:08 2013-08-18 or indeed week.)
shit---------------------
(the crossbar on the t extends to the end of the page to signify my emotion)
again
again
getroom (I think??? it might have been "getram", but I doubt it)
unimpressed russians
(<3)
trust no one
shit
MAKOOOOOOOOOOOOO
shit
driftlost------------
(again with the long crossbar)
shoeeeeeeeeeeeeee
(the e is cursive and devolves into scribbled loops)
mamaaaaa
oh baby
baby
baby
memory
Shit
nonononono no
do not shoot the shatterdome
Mako
dude
hero
bowtie hero
(because shooing everybody out and then unplugging them yourself? Big damn hero.)
baby baby
baby
s
shhhhbaby
shhh
flashlight
(I loved the blacklight flashlight, totally awesome method of finding your way with secret signs)
male potency
shit oh
(oblivious Newt just walked right up to the wrong guys)
kaiju geek
dayyyyum
(secret room)
chin
(oh Hannibal, you magnificent bastard; I love your shoes)
wowwww
knife
(Hannibal shoves his switchblade up Newt's nose)
yelly bitch
(this is the asshole Aussie kid)
Mako military
(Mako has military discipline where the asshole Aussie kid clearly does not)
punchy punchy
punchy
punchy
(I recognized this from the gifset)
audience
(an audience has gathered for the fight; someone had clearly been asking for it for a while)
pipe
ow
(bursting open a steam pipe ought to result in rather more injuries)
fists tumblr had it right
(I recognized it from the gifset and appreciated Mako's clenched fists in the background)
(oh god why is it so hard to find by searching, I know the one I mean, where it points out that dude's been looking for an excuse to punch out Chuck, and Mako is exercising restraint in not mopping the floor with Chuck but dude is doing just fine)
yelly
blame blame blame
oh Mako
aw cry :(
yelly Pentecost
ow ow ow memoryyyyy
is it him?
(knock on Mako's door, she's clearly hoping it's dude)
(it is not dude)
oh ohhhhhhh Pentecost
grab, spank
daddy
(dude grabs Pentecost; I expect Pentecost to go full-on strict dad and whup dude)
no touching
fixed point
compliance
yowwwww
sir
hello discipline kink
triple scorn
(the Crimson Typhoon pilots walk by scornfully)
no table
(cafeteria dynamics: in the crowded cafeteria after you've epically fucked up, there is never anywhere to sit)
ow
silence
really strong
no need to fuck
(ordinarily I would be all "get these two a bed STAT" but they have utter, zero, completely, no-thank-you-I-had-some-earlier, no actual need to fuck. If they wanted to later they might, but it seems superfluous after drift.)
give me george shaun drift
(earlier there was chatter about Toby Daye Pacific Rim AUs. That would be nice, but what I so very, very, very, hardcore want to see? George and Shaun Mason. 9000% drift-compatible.)
2 SHIT
(a zigzag line of uncontrollable feelings extends to the bottom of the page. Two kaiju have come through, as predicted by whazzface.)
glowy owww
Russian pilot beautiful
(she really is)
worship
2 brains :)
dino no :)
(BAD SCIENCE. PLASTIC TUBES AND POTS AND PANS. BITS AND PIECES AND. BITS AND PIECES AND. BAD SCIENCE.)
glasses off
(Newt whips his glasses off. He's being so srs.)
"funning"
(Hannibal means "fucking", of course, but Newt's not stupid and there's no need to waste a curse word)
you goddamn moron :)
(Hannibal has feelings about Newt's actions)
Typhoon :(
(Jaeger down. Goodbye, Crimson Typhoon. You were brave.)
shit
shit
shit
shit
giant robots
emp oops
shit
emp
digital
ha
(Apparently the new jaegers aren't well hard like the old ones are.)
ha
HA
both ways
IDIOT
(when you drift with the kaiju, does not the kaiju also drift with ... you?)
(deep abyss is deep. sharp grouse is sharp.)
eyes
(zigzag underline takes up the entire page)
hannibal
(overwritten in the zigzag underline, diagonally against the zags)
really
stupid
flareguns
lol
hello trigger
(it turns out that gratuitously bravely stupid use of flare guns is a minor trigger for me.)
2nd drift
ow ow
city
Container knuckles improvised weapons
(jaeger snatches up a handful of shipping containers to use to beat the monster with)
birds
(a relatively calm seagull flies off at the last minute, grounding the scene in the "reality" of its physicality. as seagulls do.)
glowy
(niiiightmare fuel, omg)
pulse
(does the monster have a pulse? no. because you shoot the monster until it does not.)
learned lesson
(he will never turn his back on a possibly not-dead kaiju again)
shelter
paranoid
little dude
newt
oh god
2nd one
oh newt
lick
oh shit
(THE KAIJU JUST LICKED NEWT WITH A REALLY BEAUTIFUL LONG GLOWING FLOWER-STAMEN TENTACLE TONGUE YOU GUYS. SHIT GOT REAL.)
club ship
(the jaeger just picked up a ship to use as a club)
pretty tongueeee
color
(the colors in this, oh man, all the little rainbowy moments.)
smash
toy story billboard
(was that Buzz Lightyear I just saw?)
aaaaaaaa
office
newton's cradle
newt heh
acid burn
crash and
(for whatever reason the kaiju making with the acid attack that melted the building resulted in me thinking of Hackers. I wish I could just -- crash and burn.)
yay notebook
(I think that's what it said. I think I am celebrating having this outlet for all my feelings. Also at about this time my bladder is making its displeasure known, but I can't just run out and go pee, as things have got real.)
coolant
freezy
coolant
(I turn the page and try a few times to write on the skiddy, unwelcoming surface before realizing I have reached the end of the notebook and it's time to turn around.)
wings up
(THE KAIJU HAS WINGS.)
sompy
aaaa
ftywg
whiHHHH
cuuy
noom
(I'm pretty sure this translates as:
stompy
aaaa
flying
whatttt
???? (I have no idea)
moon)
(I was a bit excited)
(actually after consulting with #yuletide, that incoherent bit may have been "crrrry". I was having emotions.)
take a flying fuck at the moon
(the only reason I know what this says is because I know what this says)
sword
(SWORD)
nice
fall
ow
alarm
(the deceptively calm and familiar voice of the altitude alarm)
(why does a jaeger have an altitude alarm)
(jaeger not designed for flight)
(why altitude alarm, no really)
(but in the moment I did not question that)
my god
my god
falling like an angel
ow
ow ow
ow ow
ow
ow
go danger
Mako
Mako
Mako
Mako
shakes
(I think that's what it said. It could also have been "snacks")
pretty
pretty tats
Newt
yay hannibal
dude and Mako need to go fuck
(ah, now I'm into that apparently, but that's probably what you should do after a fight.)
yell time
smile not yell
daddy moment
blue hair me
(all this time I have been looking at her blue hair, and even though we have few physical things in common -- she is short, I am medium-tall, she is thin, I am fat, she is athletic, I am no longer athletic, she is Asian, I am white, she speaks multiple languages, I speak one, she is chary with her words, I am hella loquacious, her style is spare and tidy, my style is flourished and flowing, she probably witnessed her parents being killed by a kaiju in front of her when she looked about six or seven years old, I have had a relatively sheltered and privileged life and my parents are alive -- the blue hair creates in me an instant feeling of kinship and identity. There are a lot of things that someone trying to design a blank slate character that a woman in the audience could project herself into might think to hollow out of her to create room for the audience member. But the hair was enough to let me jump right in. Could I have enjoyed this without a strong identification with a character? Yes, of course! It's amazingly rare that I feel such a magnetic assertion that this character is mine; this character is me; that something significant and distinctive about me is portrayed onscreen.)
blood
oh damn
time
brain
dad
salvage crew
eaten
glowy
damage
hannibal
alive
still alive
shit
pregnant
shit
not good
NOT
GOOD
body horror
umbilical
oh god oh god
om ... nom ... nom ?
shoe.
(The shoe felt significant, gold shoe red shoe.)
sick blood
mark 1
radiation
shit
the cancer
3 hrs
shit
solo
shit
awuuuuuuuu
(this starts with an a, and degenerates into scribbles)
drift
2 <3
(they are both survivors of having their drift partner die, and pilot a jaeger alone)
(the only 2)
<3 <3 <3
for, with <3
non-nt
<3 <3
<3<3<3
(scientist shenanigans)
(the hearts are overlapping messily)
shit
it will kill him
(Pentecost knows that piloting a jaeger again will kill him; Miss Mori knows this too; everyone else is figuring it out)
Miss Mori
dad
she lets herself cry for him
(I noticed that in previous scenes, while she had indeed been experiencing tears coming to her eyes in a way that she could not help, in moments of great emotion and stress, she had also been keeping herself under iron control, and not letting herself cry in front of anyone. The fact that she will allow herself to cry in front of others when her adoptive father is about to go off and sacrifice himself in the same way that he'd tried to protect her from ever experiencing -- Miss Mori allows herself to shed a tear. This is a great concession to their relationship.)
(or, YES YOU CAN CRY AND BE A STRONG PERSON WHILE FEMALE. STUFF IT.)
junior is outsider
egotistical jerk w/daddy issues
boy gonna die
(by going in the jaeger with a doomed co-pilot, you yourself are doomed: you'll experience them dying while you're in the drift, and then either you have half a jaeger or you take the whole jaeger and odds are you're not going to survive the experience. And everybody knows it.)
and he knew it
bye dog
;_;
(yes, that is literally what I wrote)
future
<3 <3
radioactive
fffff
knew those 2 could drift
(the scientists)
fish
(a school of fish swims by, bounces off the jaeger)
seafloor ordeal
(I really have to pee at this point. But the whole rift in seafloor thing reminds me of another rift in seafloor experience, Deep Wizardry and the Song of the Twelve. I'm struggling to find the words that will let other people know what the reference is, although I know exactly what I mean.)
song0t3 1Z
(I know exactly what I mean, and my handwriting is suffering. This is supposed to read "Song of the 12". It ... really doesn't.)
ride kaiju
jesus6 5
(time for the next category up! Which I'd misremembered.)
zipper
slice
oh shit gotta ride in
nuclear
Makoooo
always drift
nuke
boom
boom
fish
thank you
(I think this is what it says)
emp
finish
swords
rift
rift
drift
pod
eject
(aaaaa)
manual
shit
blown
pod
omg
collapse
no rain
sun
(It's been raining for the whole movie. This is not unusual around the ocean -- but when we finally see sun, it's symbolic of the change.)
Mako
rescue
month
yay
sweetie
(I am entirely enthusiastic about whatever direction they choose to take their relationship)
yay <3
<3 <3
(I was hoping for a kiss but I agree with the billionty people who said it's stronger without it; my fannish need for the kiss can be satisfied through fannish avenues without tainting the movie experience for those who need it without the kiss)
(the credits start and I bolt for the ladies' room. While I'm in there, I realize that I've basically exploded blood all over and didn't even notice, and they turn out the lights because they think everybody's left. wtf, it's Friday night? I guess it's too late Friday night in the suburbs?)
I found http://heydontjudgeme.com/2013/08/02/movie-recap-pacific-rim/ in my to-read queue after I got all this out of my system, and it is excellent and way more coherent than this.
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sarahtales has a recap.
02:26 2013-08-10
From the notepad:
Paranoia: watch (the trailer seems like the sort of plotty fucked-up action thriller that I'd be all over, plus dude looks enough like new!Kirk that my mind will happily go to AU places)
Wait FORD?? <- I'd missed that Harrison Ford (like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic) was the old dude in Ender's Game, because I'm used to him with a very different hair color, and his current hair color is a sort of "I'm in denial about my grey hair" old man blond, not actually a legit grey. But then I saw his chin and recognized him.
I'm going to want to watch The Grandmaster as well, because it also, wheeee, oh my god.
The Catching Fire trailer was also in there somewhere, and while I didn't take notes, it was gorgeous; I didn't have the same urgency because I've read the book and baaaasically this is one of the ones that I'm going to have to be braced for above and beyond the actual text of the movie, because I have old trauma that the movie plugs right the hell into. That's not going to stop me from seeing it, but it does mean that I'm going to have to be careful when seeing it, and not do it any time that I can't afford to utterly lose my shit (internally). (This is post-therapy.)
and now--
RIM
***
oops ... there goes SF (this is a theme: San Francisco is a large enough city that it gets the crap beat out of it in movies on a regular basis. It's surreal to watch the city you're in get destroyed onscreen.)
shit. (nice drift there)
owww
pilots
action figures
toxic blood?
arg slurs :(
*facepalm* (I was prepared for this going in, and it's not a word that either applies to me nor has been used against me, so it's not an emotional blow to me to encounter it, but since it's still in active use as a slur despite some people reclaiming it, it's not appropriate as a jaeger name.)
hooooome AK
It turns out that I get kind of emotional at seeing my homeland on the big screen, even when it's just letters painted on a bunker.
Slashy
oops brothers
How much do I enjoy horseplay between people, especially men, who are physically comfortable with each other? A LOT.
nice suits
The black undersuits for the drift are really neat; it makes me want to touch them and rub my face on the tech.
driftttttttt
spine nifty
This feels like fully realized tech. It is gadget porn. I am all about the gadget porn.
nice grime.
battle worn
The outer layer of the suit is all dinged up; this is clearly not new. This is clearly -- yeah, that post I saw somewhere in passing about the visual language of the movie, even though I was trying to stay unspoiled, I saw that much of it, and I seeeee what they meant. This is a universe that's been lived in and beaten up and touched. A lot.
so white dudes
who's the guy who ?
There's a guy in there who looks like JGL.
rosary
all the [something]
HOME
HOME
HOME
HOME
I'm clearly having a lot of Alaska feels.
nobody mentioned Alaska
Or, at least, nobody mentioned Alaska specifically outside of spoilerzone. I mean, I know the name of the movie is Pacific Rim? But there's a difference between "the events of this movie affect a lot of places including your home state" and "the beginning of the main part of this movie is located in your home state even though absolutely no part of it appears to have required a location shoot there" (speaking of which, I'm so stoked for Crossover, you have no idea)
Pentecost
(now *there's* a name)
hahaha snark
banter
I am such a fucking sucker for banter, omg.
driftttttttt
(this is becoming a theme)
Pentecost, what a name.
(yep)
brain damage
Gulf
Anchorage
(feeeeels)
mechanical I like it
all the lights
Yes, it entirely makes sense to have floodlights mounted on the various parts of the jaeger, because the pilots need to see where it's going, don't they? And it helps other people see where exactly that big damn limb is going to be.
ooo water on the lens
Yes, this is a very fucking tangible universe. Even though I suspect this all of being CGI. Put your hand inside the puppet head. Touch the puppets.
shitboat.
Kaijuuuuuuuuuu
boat
yikes glowy
I have a phobia of unexpected lights in the darkness, so the kaiju are basically nightmare fuel for me, above and beyond their already-strong nightmare fuel potential.
ooo eyes
(lots of them)
bilateral symmetry
(all they got me was this lousy F-shirt)
rock
hardp
boat
that poor boat, stuck between a kaiju and a jaeger.
Punch monster
aaa Zappppy
(electricity phobia, hello)
nerves?
wtf? zap?
home
shit 2nd
oh
no
first
(It wasn't dead yet. oops.)
Punch monster?
owowow
ow ow ow
gold?
what?
what missing
dude no
aaaa no
home?
can he whole thing
kill himself
aaa
brother
(Can he run the whole thing himself? He'll die trying.)
(at this point I gave up trying to use both sides of the paper, because it just wasn't working for me.)
yeh heblowup
shit but you don't survive
partner
cannot be good
(walking the beach with the metal detector; this sort of peaceful scene is a recipe for trouble, and I expect someone to die horribly any minute)
oh my very large
mittens on strings
(this is the sort of detail that can get missed about cold climates when they're depicted by people who aren't from cold climates)
how survive?
expected him to die
yikes
how learn?
all men world leader
oh, one [woman] from Peru
never, lol
(the construction sign has had the projected completion date crossed out and "never" spraypainted in.)
top of the wall ow
(bad news: three workers on the top of the wall were killed. good news: three new job openings. Top of the wall.)
construction for dude?
(my relatively mild faceblindness means that when an unfamiliar actor changes costume and makeup, I have to guess at whether it's the same person until the movie tells me. One of the relatively recent Sherlock Holmes movies was made a lot more entertaining because Mary and The Woman looked insufficiently different ((white women of the same build, delicate features, dark hair, and heavily costumed)) that I was convinced that they were the same person. Since they never spoke nor were even in the same frame, this persisted until the credits.)
straps?
(Is he clamping himself onto the metal structure for safety lest he fall?)
ground not secure
(no, this is not a clamp that could physically hold him, it is a grounding clamp. This job is taking physical risks that OSHA would scream about, but no1curr because monsters. The internet tells me that he must therefore be arc welding, and now I know approximately 300x more about welding than I did a little bit ago, which is to say that I really never want to get near it because it's hot, glowy, dangerous, and in the case of arc welding, electric.)
Poor opera house
Aussie assholes
(we meet the son.)
heli for dude
(I bet the helicopter is Pentecost coming to retrieve the blond guy.)
yep
very sharp
(Pentecost, damn he's stylin'. This is in sharp contrast to the generally shitty work environment, which is all dirty and battered, and the establishing shot of the crowd had what looked like microwaves in it, which says things to me about the culture of the job site: specifically, that they do not feed their workers properly as it looks like they're expected to take care of their own lunches despite there being enough of them that there really by rights ought to be a chow truck or something.)
some office
sweater holes nice
(see above; white dude's sweater has holes in it, which I appreciated on account of the welding and general poor condition of all the things.)
head :( ow :(
died :( ow :(
(Telepathy with your dying brother? NOT A PLEASANT EXPERIENCE.)
well when you put it that way
(do you want to go back in a jaeger and risk someone else dying in your head, or die on the wall? also, winter is coming.)
shatterdome?
(this name is never adequately explained; maybe the novelization will do better)
the fux tanks?
(What are these glowing tanks with biological-looking things in them?)
wish I could read
(I cannot read Chinese or Japanese, to my eternal chagrin. This is a thing you have to study, and I'm not very good at studying.)
There is someone striding along, wearing a long coat and carrying a really nice umbrella. I interpret the stride as an effeminate man's, and am looking forward to meeting him.
brolly dude is lady
(not an effeminate man, a decisive woman, and I like her straight off.)
(and I want the full genderflipped AU where there's Mr. Mori and then HELLA LADIES ALL THE LADIES MOTHERS SISTERS DAUGHTERS FRIENDS LOVERS LADIES LADIES LADIES AND MR. MORI WITH HIS SWASH AND ALSO HIS BUCKLE)
blue hair
(I like blue hair)
lol language
(white dude speaks Japanese, to blue-haired lady's chagrin at having spoken about him to Pentecost in front of him)
hee
flirt flirt
(I ship them. hard. instantly. Which is maybe not so typical for me and m/f couples? idk.)
newt? lol
(hello geekboy with tank full of biological-looking things, and glasses. there is a dude at work with those glasses. Newt here has all the charm and personal grace of Seymour from Little Shop of Horrors. I do not like Seymour. I like Newt, but not in a pants-feeling ways like I often enjoy geekboys.)
you will
([I have no idea what my parenthetical statement was, but there's a d in the middle of the word, and it ends with t. Understatement? maybe?])
munitions yay
(warning sign about live munitions)
polished floor
(the floor of the jaeger section of the shatterdome is the sort of slick polished surface that speaks of so much ground-in dirt, so much traffic, so much cleaning that what was originally concrete looks like seamless black stone.)
no traffic
(white boy does not understand the rules of the road, and nearly gets run over by one of the countless little vehicles; the driver makes the sort of rude gesture that you make at the idiot that you nearly killed)
mmm Russia that's pretty
(I have a thing for strongly built women with dark hair and dark lipstick, even if they're bleached platinum. Put her together with her counterpart, and mmmmm yeah. Those people are pretty.)
Aussie assholes hi here
(the original impression was of Junior, who made a very strong and bad impression.)
always w/ plans
lol radioactive
(this will prove later to be a plot point)
oh augh lol guts
(Newt is being gross and gesturing with a handful of kaiju guts.)
lol rules
(Newt's officemate the physically disabled and possibly also non-neurotypical mathematician has rules about where Newt may and may not sling his handfuls of greasy grimy kaiju guts. Of course.)
numbers
lol partners
(they are the best odd couple)
not really nt there
(this applies to both the scientists, but Newt is more my type of non-neurotypical than his officemate. And by "my type", I mean, Newt is sort of me.)
ugh guts
(eww)
clooooones?
ewwwww
mindmeld w/
eww drift
ewww
but who
newt
lolllllll
newt/hermann
(they're an odd couple. I ship it.)
love laptop
(blue-haired lady hugs what looks like a macbook of the future)
lol alloys fffff
(you don't know how metal works. alloys are good things when they're the right material for the job. stronger. different properties. pure metal is only a good thing when it's the right material for the job. if it's not, you're fucking yourself over. let's hope it's the right material for the job. science rant over, back to our regularly scheduled alien lizard apocalypse.)
friends
simulator
(blue-haired lady, aww yiss badass, and I know she's going to be there because internets)
lol wrong man yay
(????)
female gaze
(blue-haired lady appreciates shirtless white dude, gets caught looking, slams her door, continues the appreciative glance through peephole. LADIES.)
revenge?
(it's personal, with the kaiju and her.)
well, match
new sweater
(the one he fucked up welding has probably been quietly taken away, washed, and handed off to someone who needs it more than he does)
jerk
yay dad
(I have sussed out that blue-haired lady is treating Pentecost like a father-figure; he becomes "daddy" in my shorthand)
(either that or I am talking about Aussie Dad, who is awesome)
lol kick
oh, clipboard?
(blue-haired lady's aluminum rectangle might not be a laptop after all; we never do see the front of it that I can tell)
tablet?
pleeeeeeease daddy
(this is definitely Pentecost; this interaction is definitely one between parent/child, not just superior and minion)
physical lol
heee
fancy
yay
(SUCH A SUCKER for physical compatibility)
whaaaaaaaaaa
awww
but daddy
(blue-haired lady does not get to play with the jaegers)
oops
room
(blue-haired lady, trying to open the wrong door)
RESPECT
bleeding?
cancer?
oh shit
meds
(in which the penny drops: that wasn't altoids that Pentecost was popping back in Anchorage, those are meds.)
not tats, scars
(the beautiful lines on the one side of white boy's body are not body art, they are scars from his previous jaeger pilot experience. that shit *fucks you up*.)
oh shit dude
(Newt is gonna drift)
bellows?
(his equipment is hilariously cobbled together)
ohgod
shit
dear god
be cool hon
dressed up
shoe?
bowties are cool
(clearly I think dude here looks like the kids' Doctor)
(my Doctor is Eleven, therefore Twelve is the kids' Doctor)
different side
(it would make sense that he swaps sides because brother, also burnout)
intimacy
nervous
ooooooowat
blood
broken
tics fidget
(I noticed Aussie Dad playing with his ring, and that's the sort of thing where there's often a story. Meaningful piece of jewelry, and you touch it when nervous and draw strength from whatever it symbolizes to you.)
oh newt
(what's more important than watching your protege on her first drift? finding out that the fucking asshole stupid scientist has done mad science on himself and drifted with part of a kaiju brain.)
jacked up
(newt is not okay)
orders
shut up keep talking
(you, shut up. you, keep talking. yes banter yes.)
colonists not communists
(me and my audio funtimes)
dinosaurs lol
aaaaaaaaaa
terraformed
05:10 2013-08-10
(we pause here because apparently typing these up is a substantial time investment and cannot be accomplished in just one evening. Er, morning. 03:08 2013-08-18 or indeed week.)
shit---------------------
(the crossbar on the t extends to the end of the page to signify my emotion)
again
again
getroom (I think??? it might have been "getram", but I doubt it)
unimpressed russians
(<3)
trust no one
shit
MAKOOOOOOOOOOOOO
shit
driftlost------------
(again with the long crossbar)
shoeeeeeeeeeeeeee
(the e is cursive and devolves into scribbled loops)
mamaaaaa
oh baby
baby
baby
memory
Shit
nonononono no
do not shoot the shatterdome
Mako
dude
hero
bowtie hero
(because shooing everybody out and then unplugging them yourself? Big damn hero.)
baby baby
baby
s
shhhhbaby
shhh
flashlight
(I loved the blacklight flashlight, totally awesome method of finding your way with secret signs)
male potency
shit oh
(oblivious Newt just walked right up to the wrong guys)
kaiju geek
dayyyyum
(secret room)
chin
(oh Hannibal, you magnificent bastard; I love your shoes)
wowwww
knife
(Hannibal shoves his switchblade up Newt's nose)
yelly bitch
(this is the asshole Aussie kid)
Mako military
(Mako has military discipline where the asshole Aussie kid clearly does not)
punchy punchy
punchy
punchy
(I recognized this from the gifset)
audience
(an audience has gathered for the fight; someone had clearly been asking for it for a while)
pipe
ow
(bursting open a steam pipe ought to result in rather more injuries)
fists tumblr had it right
(I recognized it from the gifset and appreciated Mako's clenched fists in the background)
(oh god why is it so hard to find by searching, I know the one I mean, where it points out that dude's been looking for an excuse to punch out Chuck, and Mako is exercising restraint in not mopping the floor with Chuck but dude is doing just fine)
yelly
blame blame blame
oh Mako
aw cry :(
yelly Pentecost
ow ow ow memoryyyyy
is it him?
(knock on Mako's door, she's clearly hoping it's dude)
(it is not dude)
oh ohhhhhhh Pentecost
grab, spank
daddy
(dude grabs Pentecost; I expect Pentecost to go full-on strict dad and whup dude)
no touching
fixed point
compliance
yowwwww
sir
hello discipline kink
triple scorn
(the Crimson Typhoon pilots walk by scornfully)
no table
(cafeteria dynamics: in the crowded cafeteria after you've epically fucked up, there is never anywhere to sit)
ow
silence
really strong
no need to fuck
(ordinarily I would be all "get these two a bed STAT" but they have utter, zero, completely, no-thank-you-I-had-some-earlier, no actual need to fuck. If they wanted to later they might, but it seems superfluous after drift.)
give me george shaun drift
(earlier there was chatter about Toby Daye Pacific Rim AUs. That would be nice, but what I so very, very, very, hardcore want to see? George and Shaun Mason. 9000% drift-compatible.)
2 SHIT
(a zigzag line of uncontrollable feelings extends to the bottom of the page. Two kaiju have come through, as predicted by whazzface.)
glowy owww
Russian pilot beautiful
(she really is)
worship
2 brains :)
dino no :)
(BAD SCIENCE. PLASTIC TUBES AND POTS AND PANS. BITS AND PIECES AND. BITS AND PIECES AND. BAD SCIENCE.)
glasses off
(Newt whips his glasses off. He's being so srs.)
"funning"
(Hannibal means "fucking", of course, but Newt's not stupid and there's no need to waste a curse word)
you goddamn moron :)
(Hannibal has feelings about Newt's actions)
Typhoon :(
(Jaeger down. Goodbye, Crimson Typhoon. You were brave.)
shit
shit
shit
shit
giant robots
emp oops
shit
emp
digital
ha
(Apparently the new jaegers aren't well hard like the old ones are.)
ha
HA
both ways
IDIOT
(when you drift with the kaiju, does not the kaiju also drift with ... you?)
(deep abyss is deep. sharp grouse is sharp.)
eyes
(zigzag underline takes up the entire page)
hannibal
(overwritten in the zigzag underline, diagonally against the zags)
really
stupid
flareguns
lol
hello trigger
(it turns out that gratuitously bravely stupid use of flare guns is a minor trigger for me.)
2nd drift
ow ow
city
Container knuckles improvised weapons
(jaeger snatches up a handful of shipping containers to use to beat the monster with)
birds
(a relatively calm seagull flies off at the last minute, grounding the scene in the "reality" of its physicality. as seagulls do.)
glowy
(niiiightmare fuel, omg)
pulse
(does the monster have a pulse? no. because you shoot the monster until it does not.)
learned lesson
(he will never turn his back on a possibly not-dead kaiju again)
shelter
paranoid
little dude
newt
oh god
2nd one
oh newt
lick
oh shit
(THE KAIJU JUST LICKED NEWT WITH A REALLY BEAUTIFUL LONG GLOWING FLOWER-STAMEN TENTACLE TONGUE YOU GUYS. SHIT GOT REAL.)
club ship
(the jaeger just picked up a ship to use as a club)
pretty tongueeee
color
(the colors in this, oh man, all the little rainbowy moments.)
smash
toy story billboard
(was that Buzz Lightyear I just saw?)
aaaaaaaa
office
newton's cradle
newt heh
acid burn
crash and
(for whatever reason the kaiju making with the acid attack that melted the building resulted in me thinking of Hackers. I wish I could just -- crash and burn.)
yay notebook
(I think that's what it said. I think I am celebrating having this outlet for all my feelings. Also at about this time my bladder is making its displeasure known, but I can't just run out and go pee, as things have got real.)
coolant
freezy
coolant
(I turn the page and try a few times to write on the skiddy, unwelcoming surface before realizing I have reached the end of the notebook and it's time to turn around.)
wings up
(THE KAIJU HAS WINGS.)
sompy
aaaa
ftywg
whiHHHH
cuuy
noom
(I'm pretty sure this translates as:
stompy
aaaa
flying
whatttt
???? (I have no idea)
moon)
(I was a bit excited)
(actually after consulting with #yuletide, that incoherent bit may have been "crrrry". I was having emotions.)
take a flying fuck at the moon
(the only reason I know what this says is because I know what this says)
sword
(SWORD)
nice
fall
ow
alarm
(the deceptively calm and familiar voice of the altitude alarm)
(why does a jaeger have an altitude alarm)
(jaeger not designed for flight)
(why altitude alarm, no really)
(but in the moment I did not question that)
my god
my god
falling like an angel
ow
ow ow
ow ow
ow
ow
go danger
Mako
Mako
Mako
Mako
shakes
(I think that's what it said. It could also have been "snacks")
pretty
pretty tats
Newt
yay hannibal
dude and Mako need to go fuck
(ah, now I'm into that apparently, but that's probably what you should do after a fight.)
yell time
smile not yell
daddy moment
blue hair me
(all this time I have been looking at her blue hair, and even though we have few physical things in common -- she is short, I am medium-tall, she is thin, I am fat, she is athletic, I am no longer athletic, she is Asian, I am white, she speaks multiple languages, I speak one, she is chary with her words, I am hella loquacious, her style is spare and tidy, my style is flourished and flowing, she probably witnessed her parents being killed by a kaiju in front of her when she looked about six or seven years old, I have had a relatively sheltered and privileged life and my parents are alive -- the blue hair creates in me an instant feeling of kinship and identity. There are a lot of things that someone trying to design a blank slate character that a woman in the audience could project herself into might think to hollow out of her to create room for the audience member. But the hair was enough to let me jump right in. Could I have enjoyed this without a strong identification with a character? Yes, of course! It's amazingly rare that I feel such a magnetic assertion that this character is mine; this character is me; that something significant and distinctive about me is portrayed onscreen.)
blood
oh damn
time
brain
dad
salvage crew
eaten
glowy
damage
hannibal
alive
still alive
shit
pregnant
shit
not good
NOT
GOOD
body horror
umbilical
oh god oh god
om ... nom ... nom ?
shoe.
(The shoe felt significant, gold shoe red shoe.)
sick blood
mark 1
radiation
shit
the cancer
3 hrs
shit
solo
shit
awuuuuuuuu
(this starts with an a, and degenerates into scribbles)
drift
2 <3
(they are both survivors of having their drift partner die, and pilot a jaeger alone)
(the only 2)
<3 <3 <3
for, with <3
non-nt
<3 <3
<3<3<3
(scientist shenanigans)
(the hearts are overlapping messily)
shit
it will kill him
(Pentecost knows that piloting a jaeger again will kill him; Miss Mori knows this too; everyone else is figuring it out)
Miss Mori
dad
she lets herself cry for him
(I noticed that in previous scenes, while she had indeed been experiencing tears coming to her eyes in a way that she could not help, in moments of great emotion and stress, she had also been keeping herself under iron control, and not letting herself cry in front of anyone. The fact that she will allow herself to cry in front of others when her adoptive father is about to go off and sacrifice himself in the same way that he'd tried to protect her from ever experiencing -- Miss Mori allows herself to shed a tear. This is a great concession to their relationship.)
(or, YES YOU CAN CRY AND BE A STRONG PERSON WHILE FEMALE. STUFF IT.)
junior is outsider
egotistical jerk w/daddy issues
boy gonna die
(by going in the jaeger with a doomed co-pilot, you yourself are doomed: you'll experience them dying while you're in the drift, and then either you have half a jaeger or you take the whole jaeger and odds are you're not going to survive the experience. And everybody knows it.)
and he knew it
bye dog
;_;
(yes, that is literally what I wrote)
future
<3 <3
radioactive
fffff
knew those 2 could drift
(the scientists)
fish
(a school of fish swims by, bounces off the jaeger)
seafloor ordeal
(I really have to pee at this point. But the whole rift in seafloor thing reminds me of another rift in seafloor experience, Deep Wizardry and the Song of the Twelve. I'm struggling to find the words that will let other people know what the reference is, although I know exactly what I mean.)
song0t3 1Z
(I know exactly what I mean, and my handwriting is suffering. This is supposed to read "Song of the 12". It ... really doesn't.)
ride kaiju
jesus
(time for the next category up! Which I'd misremembered.)
zipper
slice
oh shit gotta ride in
nuclear
Makoooo
always drift
nuke
boom
boom
fish
thank you
(I think this is what it says)
emp
finish
swords
rift
rift
drift
pod
eject
(aaaaa)
manual
shit
blown
pod
omg
collapse
no rain
sun
(It's been raining for the whole movie. This is not unusual around the ocean -- but when we finally see sun, it's symbolic of the change.)
Mako
rescue
month
yay
sweetie
(I am entirely enthusiastic about whatever direction they choose to take their relationship)
yay <3
<3 <3
(I was hoping for a kiss but I agree with the billionty people who said it's stronger without it; my fannish need for the kiss can be satisfied through fannish avenues without tainting the movie experience for those who need it without the kiss)
(the credits start and I bolt for the ladies' room. While I'm in there, I realize that I've basically exploded blood all over and didn't even notice, and they turn out the lights because they think everybody's left. wtf, it's Friday night? I guess it's too late Friday night in the suburbs?)
I found http://heydontjudgeme.com/2013/08/02/movie-recap-pacific-rim/ in my to-read queue after I got all this out of my system, and it is excellent and way more coherent than this.
Also
sarahtales has a recap.
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I watched this the day before I moved out here. I mean, literally twelve hours after I saw this movie I was on the plane headed west. Watching that, and seeing that K-day was last week made me think bad omens were afoot.
My guess is has something to do with the fact that jaegers are air-lifted to the battle and then dropped.
If you haven't found it yet, check out the writer's Tumblr (http://travisbeacham.tumblr.com/). He reblogs fanart and answers a lot of questions about the world of the movie & prequel graphic novel (he didn't write the novelization of the movie). Of particular note are this (http://travisbeacham.tumblr.com/post/58514283810/your-blog-is-murdering-me-its-like-if-jk-rowling) and this (http://travisbeacham.tumblr.com/post/58211367219/hi-i-know-a-lot-of-people-are-concerned-about-the-name).
As much as I enjoy Doctor Who, or The Avengers, this movie is the first thing in a long time that I'd consider myself "in the fandom of".
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