Thank you.

I wound up getting to say what I needed to say, as I called as soon as I saw Mama's message. It was less for my peace of mind at that point, and more for his. Whatever there was left of it. I'd done a lot of my processing in the years between the finding out about the stuff and the actual end, it turned out, to the point that when I mentioned my dad sometimes people were surprised that he was still living.