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azurelunatic) wrote2002-08-07 11:25 am
azurelunatic) wrote2002-08-07 11:25 am
Morning.
Ate breakfast with Darkside. He was reading. Did not discuss the majority of my internal ramblings of yesterday with him. Did tell him that I'd left that voicemail message for Adam.
At the beginning of the relationship with Adam, the agreement included the fact that I have assigned Darkside the emotional position of Primary, so he gets priority. I have decided to give Darkside that priority at the expense of most, if not all, other romantic relationships.
I have decided that I want a relationship with Darkside, and I have decided that I would like that relationship, if there is one, to be a long-term one.
Step one in attaining that relationship: make myself attractive to him.
There was some of the usual kidding around at breakfast. Darkside "accidentally" set his soda can on my hand a few times; he pretended to stuff his soda can down my cleavage. We played Mercy. I surrendered. We arm-wrestled; he won. (This, despite my having worked out yesterday.) As I walked him to class, he told me the trick he'd used, and I demanded a rematch on the Mercy. He told me I'd come close to winning, but I'd given up too soon.
At the beginning of the relationship with Adam, the agreement included the fact that I have assigned Darkside the emotional position of Primary, so he gets priority. I have decided to give Darkside that priority at the expense of most, if not all, other romantic relationships.
I have decided that I want a relationship with Darkside, and I have decided that I would like that relationship, if there is one, to be a long-term one.
Step one in attaining that relationship: make myself attractive to him.
There was some of the usual kidding around at breakfast. Darkside "accidentally" set his soda can on my hand a few times; he pretended to stuff his soda can down my cleavage. We played Mercy. I surrendered. We arm-wrestled; he won. (This, despite my having worked out yesterday.) As I walked him to class, he told me the trick he'd used, and I demanded a rematch on the Mercy. He told me I'd come close to winning, but I'd given up too soon.