Extreme amounts of "fun"

[azurelunatic]

Thursday's appointment was one that I knew was going to stir up trauma. The doctor ended up listing that aspect of it as PTSD, which I guess is fair. I always have thought of it as "trauma" rather than PTSD, which is kind of odd in retrospect.

I wound up taking a small dose of my "street cred" when I realized I was starting to have a trauma response. That turned out to be a good idea. There's a follow up in a few months, and I should pre-medicate for it.

Afterwards I got the 32 oz reverse mocha from a local coffee shack. (Not one of the bikini coffee shacks.) With chocolate whipped cream, thank you very much. My first time encountering white coffee espresso in a drink. Interesting and almost floral. I had Belovedest (a bitter supertaster) try it. Still coffee tasting, but not as strongly.

Although that's also possibly due to me only having 3 shots of espresso in the drink instead of the usual 6.

I would much rather discuss the coffee than the source of the trauma and the appointment, in any event.

Comments

[princessofgeeks]

Wishing you all the best as you do the hard things.

[azurelunatic]

Thank you.

[redbird]

I don't like coffee, but the idea of hot chocolate with chocolate whipped cream is appealing.

[azurelunatic]

It's lovely!

[senmut]

hugs

[azurelunatic]

Hugs

[nanila]

Surviving is hard. I am glad you are doing it with the help of coffee and Belovedest.

[azurelunatic]

And medication. And Belovedest reminding me to take it. <3

[sine_nomine]

I am confused. What is a reverse mocha?

And sending support for the trauma/PTSD-related stuff. Going through that is not in any way pleasant.

[azurelunatic]

Regular mocha is chocolate in coffee. Reverse mocha is chocolate milk with a shot (or so) of espresso. This coffee place uses white coffee espresso for it.

[ofearthandstars]

(((♥)))

I am not familiar with a reverse mocha and I had to go look up white coffee beans - very interesting, did you notice if the caffeine kick was any different! (Also, chocolate whipped cream sounds divine.)

[azurelunatic]

Due to my Ritalin, I have been careful to mostly use decaf these days, so I don't really have a basis for comparison anymore. But it definitely has some kick!

[silveradept]

Hooray for coffee. Boo for appointments that retraumatize.

[azurelunatic]

Yup.

[vass]

Ooof. <3 I hope the reverse mocha was good.

[azurelunatic]

Very good.

[azurelunatic]

Riiiiiiight, it hasn't been *P*TSD until Dad died. And perhaps not even then, as society decides to retraumatize. It's still very much an open wound.